Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Tulip Festival 2012

So since i had a week off of work after my accident, we decided to go up and visit Jesse's mom and Sister Sarah. It was a much needed weekend away, and I really enjoyed spending time with my neices and jesse's family. we took it really easy since i was still very sore and was on strict dr. orders to take it easy. so the first night we stayed up late visiting and catching up which was so nice i got plenty of play time in with my cute neices Paisley and Ava. Saturday we all went to the Tulip Festival at Thanksgiving point. It was so beautiful and the most perfect day, we spent a few hours walking around the gardens taking lots of pictures of the tulips and my nieces. then we went back to sarahs and all took a little nap then went to cafe rio for dinner and came back for a night of settlers! which was so fun, i definantly needed some family comfort after what happened.

ok so here are some pictures from the tulip festival. enjoy :)










Car Accident Part 2

wow im a slacker to the max! i guess i should finish my car accident post, and then i can post about everything else that has been going on.

So i left off where I had just been transfered to Labor and Delivery, let me tell you that the nurse i had that day was awful, and i can say that because i am a nurse. but anywho i was transported there and the CNA came in and had me sign my admit papers, after that i didn't see anyone else for 45min, the next person that came in was the doctor. He came in to check on me and tell me what the plans were for day. he asked if the Nurse had come in yet, and i said no, he was really suprised. but he told me they were going to draw some blood, and do an ultrasound and monitor me over night to make sure baby was stable.  so before the RN came in i had the lab come draw blood and the ultra sound tech come in and do my US, then after that the RN finally came in! holy cow i was kinda frustrated by then, and when she came in she didn't even tell me who she was, she wouldn't look me in the eyes and rushed thru everything. ugh. but besides that everything came back looking really good, no problems with baby or me :) jesse stayed with me till about 5pm then he headed home. I had a bunch of people from work come visit me while i was staying there, which was nice to have some company. then i just hung out till the morning, and was discharged the next morning at 10am. My night shift nurse was awesome, and made me feel very welcome and comfortable.

That same day i was in the hospital so was my friend Cami, she was a few doors down from me in L & D she was having contractions and actually had her baby that night, at 33 weeks, way to early, but her and baby are perfectly healthy.  so it was fun texting her all night, and visiting with her.

The next day i headed home, and was told not to go to work for a week, and just take it easy. so thats what i did. it kinda sucked missing work for the pay, but i was so sore, i had some extreme bruising on my chest and pelvis and hurt to move. so the first few days i just layed around. then that weekend we decided since i didn't have to work we would go up and visit Jesse's mom and sister. (i will post about that later)

The main thing that i want to remember about this experience was the feelings of comfort and love that I felt from my heavenly father. the moment my car stopped, the first instinct i had was to say a prayer. it was a very short and quick prayer but it helped me a whole ton. yes i was still in shock and freaking out but once i started to calm down i felt very comforted and knew that ultimatly everything would be ok. After looking at pictures of my car, and hearing from the doctors that it was a miracle that i wasn't injured worse, and that i was able to walk away from my accident, i knew that my heavenly father was watching over me, and that he was with me in the car, and kept me and Josie Safe. it was a huge testimony builder for me. I have so much love for my heavenly father and I truly believe that he knows each and every one of us and what we need, and that he watches over us in times of need. I am very grateful to be a memeber of this church.

I am so grateful that me and Josie are ok, and I can't wait to meet her and hold my little girl :)

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Car Accident and Birthday

April 10th was my birthday, and i had a really good birthday :) the week before my mom came down for a quick visit. she took me to get glitter toes and gel nails for my birthday, it was so nice to be pampered. she also bought me some clothes and took us to dinner at wingers yum. it was really nice having her here for a few days, i really love my mom and spending time with her really makes me excited to be a mom myself. Then on my actual birthday Jesse spoiled me, i got two new coats/jackets both way cute, and a skirt. he also got my wedding ring redipped and polished and it looks so good now, i absolutley love it. then we went out to dinner at wingers again, haha we like that place, they have the best dessert ever, called the cookie zookie it is to die for! i am actually craving it now! then we went and saw John Carter. which was a pretty decent movie. it was such a nice day, Thank you jesse for spoiling me rotten. I love you Jesse. 

So later that week after i had worked all my 3 shifts, i decided to pick up an extra shift on saturday to make some overtime. so saturday morning i got up and headed to work as usual. It was a rainy day so i was going slower than normal, and taking my time getting to work. I had made it to Leeds, and right as i was coming around the corner where the L is on the mountaini hit a big puddle and hydroplained, at that point i lost all control of my car and i new i was going to be in a wreck. Everything after that happened so fast, i remember spinning out and my car slamming into a cement barrier that was on the Right side of the road going southbound. I hit that going about 75mph, I must of hit it hard enough to project me back to the road, and then i spun out thru the barrier and stopped in the fast lane going north bound. during this time my airbags went off and slammed me again the seat, i lost my glasses and couldn't see what was going on, and all the smoke in the car from the airbag didn't help either. when i had stopped i was completley freaking out, i was severe shock. i couldn't stop screaming, and crying. i couldn't find my phone and i could see and didn't know what happened to my glasses.

the first real thought i had was to say a prayer, so i said a quick prayer to my heavenly father that me and josie would be ok and make it thru this. after that i opened my door so i could breathe better, the seatbelt and airbag hit me so hard i couldn't breathe then add on my asthma and i was a mess. when i opened my door i realized i was on the road still and freaked out more, i turned on my hazard lights, and tried to move my car but it wouldn't move it was completely dead. i then started screaming and crying more. im not sure how much time had gone by, but by now there were a few cars that had pulled over. A man came over to me and asked if i was ok, i was crying so hard i could barely answer the only thing i kept saying was im pregnant, im pregnant. he then gently put his hand on my shoulder and told me to calm down and take a few deep breaths. So i did, and was able to tell him i couldn't breathe adn that my chest hurt really bad, and that my hips and pelvis hurt too. he asked if i could walk, and i said yes. he then proceeded to help me out of the car and helped me over to his truck.  he called 911 and after let me use his phone to call jesse and work. it was such a long time until the ambulance got there (well it felt long) in that time an off duty cop and firefighter pulled over, and both did an assessment on me and checked me over, then the ambulance came, and when they saw the damage the freaked out and immediatley put me on a spine board and c-collar. they said that my car had hit with such force that i could have some serious injuries. that freaked me out. so in the ambulance they started to do all there assessment, and they had to cut my scrub top off (my favorite one :( ) and my garment top off ( a new one i got for my bday) so they could check out my belly and chest. at this time i started to notice that josie wasn't moving at all, usually she is pretty active, so this worried me alot!

we made it to the ER pretty quick and from there I was taken care of by a awesome staff of RN's and drs and techs. the first persons face i saw was a guy named Russell, I looked up at him and said "Hi, Russell" with a little smile. he had to take a second look at me and then looked at teh doctor and said holy cow she is one of us! Russell is one of the transport guys we work with at the hospital and brings over our new admits all the time. it was nice seeing a familiar face.  so once in the Er, they started an IV, did an xray of my pelvis and chest. then an CT scan of my chest and neck. luckily i had to breaks, and i just severily bruised my chest and ribs. then they checked on baby, and did an quick US, everything looked good on that but to be safe they wanted me to be admitted to Labor and Delivery and be observed on the fetal monitors for 24hrs. and make sure baby stayed ok and that my placent didn't abrupt. by this time jesse was there with me which helped a ton. i was so scared and anxiety ridden. this was the most terrifying thing that has ever happened to me, and the whole time i couldn't help but worry about Josie and if she would be ok, i was so scared i would lose her, or go into early labor. Jesse was so strong for the both of us, and really helped to calm my spirit. he is such a great support system. so now we just had to wait to be transported over to L&D, so while we waited jesse called his family to let them know what was happening, i waited to call my parents till later because they were on vacation and had just gotten there so i didn't want to worry them to much. 

Ok I will write about the rest of my hospital stay adn everything else tomorrow, im exhausted and to be honest i still have a hard time thinking about the accident, i haven't been sleeping due to nightmares and flashbacks. so im going to cut this into two post.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

24 Weeks

woohoo Im 24 weeks! and man my belly has grown! which is nice because i finally feel pregnant! :)  Baby Josie sure has started to move like crazy, this last week i swear she hasn't stopped at all! she is all over the place, but its good to finally feel her move. I can't believe how fast time has gone by, she is going to be here before we know it! we have finally picked out a color for the nursery, and i started to make a baby quilt for her crib. and we got a killer deal on a changing table, it just needs a coat of paint. so i think things are slowly coming together. we just really need to empty out the office so we can start moving babies stuff in there. but we have to find places for everything that was in there. oh well. Im feeling good, just tired. work is going good, but its getting harder and harder to work three shifts in a row, by the end of the week my feet are killing me and my back!!  so with this next schedule im going to space out my work week a bit. 

Saturday, March 3, 2012

21 weeks over half way there!

ok here is a quick post with a belly picture! i know i have been slacking on those.

pregnancy update, i am 21 weeks, last week at my doctors appointment everything went well, baby and i are both healthy. the doctor did seem concerned that i had only gained 7lbs so far, but said baby is growing fine so as long as i eat healthy an make sure to eat i will be good. the problem is i dont have an appetite. yes i eat, but these are things i have been craving and could eat all day! : pancakes (seriously love them, i was so excited tues was national free pancake day at ihop! totally ate 2 short stacks ) grilled cheese, mac and cheese, banana peppers, sherbert with sprite, apple sauce, ham and cheese hot pockets. and i think thats it for now. but mainly all i want is pancakes mmmm.......\
My belly is starting to pop out, and i only have a like two stretch marks :), my boobs have gotten huge! which is so nice, since i have been a flat girl my whole life. maybe that was a little TMI but oh well. hormonal wise i have been good, sometimes i snap over silly things but then apologize right after. but no crazy crying spells.  my migraines have gotten much better, i went to the chiropracter and it helped a ton! still tired but not as bad as the 1st trimester.
We are starting to work on babys nursery :) well thinking about it, i can't decide on fabric for her bedding which is causing lots of stress because im not to great with sewing and i plan on making her bedding (with the help of my sister in law and mother in law) we are going  to paint her nursery aqua, pink and yellow, or at least those are the colors i am going to do.
We  finally picked out a name for our little girl :) she is going to be Josie, after jesse's grandma, we are still working on a middle name but i love Josie its going to fit her perfectly.

so on a different note, since thats all i can think about baby right now, starting Monday i will be full time Days at the hospital!!! this is awesome because i was having a really hard time working two days and one night shift, it was definantly taking a toll on my body. so im excited.

ok here is my belly picture :)

21 weeks :)
sorry its sideways i can't figure out how to turn it.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

its a ..........

So today we had our official ultrasound to find out what our little one will be!! it was so very exciting :) but first im going to tell you about our weekend. we were able to go up north this past weekend to visit family, and celebrate my little sisters 19th birthday :) so we went up thursday night, and spent it eating dinner with jesse's family, we went up to tad and sarahs which was really fun. we ate yummy food played with my neices and of course played a game of settlers. then friday we went shopping with my mom to look at some baby things, and i got some new maternity clothes :) it was a long but very fun day. i feel a little more prepared for this baby, we now know what stroller and carseat we want, then that night we went over to Orem Community Hospital, (thats where my mom works) and we played with the Ultrasound machine, we wanted to see what the baby was, which we did, but i will tell you later :) it was so fun to play with the ultrasound machine and watch our little one, man they sure are a mover, and kicker and puncher. haha then saturday we went and saw a movie with my mom and dad, we say This Means War, it was really cute and funny. it was such a nice weekened. very relaxing and i really enjoyed visiting with my family. on monday we were able to get a sweet deal on a glider rocker w/ ottoman for 89$ brand new, it was normally 250$ so i think we got an awesome deal. also we are getting a changing table today for 15$ thats only a year onld and still in great condition! oh happy day! i love finding awesome deals. ok so now to the fun part!!

so today was my 20 week US and appointment, but the appointment had to be cancelled because the doctor had to go deliver a baby. but we still did the US, it was awesome baby is healthy and growing right on track. and we found out that we are having a ................GIRL :) i am so stinking excited. i would of been happy with either, but girls are so fun to dress up.  i will post my US pictures when i get a chance to scan them, but she sure is cute!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Christmas 2011

I know i suck at blogging, but here is our post on what we did for Christmas this year. :) enjoy ps there will be a baby update and pic at the end so keep reading.

So this year i was lucky enough to get 6 days off of work, and that included Christmas eve and Christmas :) yay me. so we packed up all our gear and doggies and headed to my parents house in Spanish Fork on Dec. 23rd. I had worked the night before so jesse let me get some sleep before we headed up. which was good because i wasn't feeling to hot, i had to pull over on my way home from work and vomit, (fun i know) but after some sleep i felt ready to go. so we headed up and made it in good time, but once i got to my parents i started to feel nauseaous, which has been an issue all first trimester. but i shrugged it off. that night i went shopping with my dad and jesse for stocking stuffers and last minute things and i must give my dad credit he did really good this year on my moms stocking ;) and jesse did much better this year on mine :).
     So after shopping we got home and i could tell i was dehydrated which isn't good with pregnancy and i was on antibiotics for a UTI. i knew i was being stupid and started to drink a gatoraid and lots of water and decided that the next day i would be better. so on Chirstmas Eve we headed up to Jesse's sisters house (Sarah) where we spent the day and evening with them. i wasn't feeling to good but i wasn't going to let that spoil my christmas. we were lucky enough this year to have Chelsea,Andrew and Ila come out from Maryland so it was really fun hanging out with them and playing with Ila she is so stinking cute! jesse's brother Ben, and his Wife lexi and sariah even came down. so it was the whole winward clan together. and man it has been a long time since we have all been together so we got a new family picture :) anywho it was a great night, we did a nativty with the neices, and jesse (he wasn't so happy about being in it, but was a good sport). then every year they do a cute little program where the neices (we have no nephews in the family yet. ) get dressed up as santas helpers and the men (dads nad uncle) wear reindeer ears and pull the girls around in a sleigh as they hand out cute little santa gifts. it was so cute, i got some awesome twilight magnents :) then we went up to eat yummy fondue and then ham and potatoes, then we all played just dance 3 which is the funnest game ever! i got it for christmas and im so happy its whats going to keep me fit this pregnancy.
after all that we went up and got the girls ready for bed as we exchanged some gifts. by this time i was not feeling so hot, so we headed back to my parents at like 10pm, where we put together our stockings got in our Christmas pjs (mine had cute owls on them and jesses were superheros ) then i went to bed because i ddint feel good. well at like 1230am i woke up with severe pain in my stomach and lower back, and i started to vomit. and mind you it was bad! i was so uncontrollable that i would think i was done just to run back in the bathroom, poor jesse was awake taking care of me, i was a mess crying, in pain and i didn't know what was wrong or going on. i just knew i couldn't stop vomiting and i couldn't keep anything down. so i had jesse go get my dad to give me a blessing to see if that would help, that calmed me down a little bit, but i was still in a lot of pain. by then my mom had come down (she is a nurse too) and told me that i needed to go to the ER, that i was severly dehydrated and that there was nothing i could do at home. so at 130am me and jesse headed up to Orem Community Hospital (thats where my mom works) and they got us right in. they immediatly started me on IV fluids and gave me some zofran, which didn't help. i was still retching and vomiting so bad, i felt bad for the other patients because i am not a quiet vomiter. :( i still was feeling so sick and the pain was really bad. at this point the doctor came in and jesse told him i had a UTI and that i wasn't feeling better from that yet and i had been on abx for 4 days. so he deduced that my pain was from a bad reaction to the abx, and switched those,  they continued to give me fluids, i got 2L. and then finally gave me some phenergan.
finally at around 7am Christmas morning the discharged me, we then had the fun task of looking for an open pharmacy,( thank you wal-greens) got my abx and phenergan and went home, me and jesse slept the day away until about 4pm when my mom came to check on us and ask if we wanted to come open presents. man i felt so out of it and still felt yucky but i decided it was christmas and i should at least open my gifts, so we went up to do that, my Aunt and uncle came down from ogden so they were there too, i opened my gifts kinda like a zombie, thanked everyone and went back to bed, i slept the rest of the day and didn't wake up till like 1pm the next day. What a sad christmas, but oh well, i was out of it the rest of the trip, i couldn't really eat, but i did stay hydrated, i ended up losing like 8lbs. :( i also felt bad because jesse got sick with the flu two days later and we weren't able to really go visit his sister chelsea before we had to go home. but what can you do when you are sick.
so that was the story of our uneventful chrismas. we did get very spoiled this year :) so thank you everyone we loved all our gifts.

ok so here is an update of baby winward, after christmas break it took me like two weeks to finally get feeling better, then i had a good solid week of feeling well, then i started to get migraines, really bad ones that would make me dizzy lightheaded, and blurry vision, my bp would drop and i would have to lie down. so i get these headaches about two to three times a week,and on Sudnay i started to cramp and spot a little bit, so we went to the ER just to be safe, and everything was found to be good, we got to see an US of our little one, and the LO is measuring good and looks to be healthy :).  and this past week we went in for our 15 week apt (yay second trimester!) and got another confirmation from Dr. Sanders that all is well and we are both healthy, he is having me try some allergy meds for my headaches, and if that doesn't work i get to go talk to a different doctor about them and most likely get on a beta blocker to help stop them. but i am feeling well, im getting some energy back and no more nausea!! i still dont really have an appetite. but i have learned to keep some food in my belly and i do well. so anywho there you go. we are so very excited for this baby adn i can't wait to find out if its a boy or girls :)







ok now for pics from christmas and the baby