Car Accident and Birthday

April 10th was my birthday, and i had a really good birthday :) the week before my mom came down for a quick visit. she took me to get glitter toes and gel nails for my birthday, it was so nice to be pampered. she also bought me some clothes and took us to dinner at wingers yum. it was really nice having her here for a few days, i really love my mom and spending time with her really makes me excited to be a mom myself. Then on my actual birthday Jesse spoiled me, i got two new coats/jackets both way cute, and a skirt. he also got my wedding ring redipped and polished and it looks so good now, i absolutley love it. then we went out to dinner at wingers again, haha we like that place, they have the best dessert ever, called the cookie zookie it is to die for! i am actually craving it now! then we went and saw John Carter. which was a pretty decent movie. it was such a nice day, Thank you jesse for spoiling me rotten. I love you Jesse. 

So later that week after i had worked all my 3 shifts, i decided to pick up an extra shift on saturday to make some overtime. so saturday morning i got up and headed to work as usual. It was a rainy day so i was going slower than normal, and taking my time getting to work. I had made it to Leeds, and right as i was coming around the corner where the L is on the mountaini hit a big puddle and hydroplained, at that point i lost all control of my car and i new i was going to be in a wreck. Everything after that happened so fast, i remember spinning out and my car slamming into a cement barrier that was on the Right side of the road going southbound. I hit that going about 75mph, I must of hit it hard enough to project me back to the road, and then i spun out thru the barrier and stopped in the fast lane going north bound. during this time my airbags went off and slammed me again the seat, i lost my glasses and couldn't see what was going on, and all the smoke in the car from the airbag didn't help either. when i had stopped i was completley freaking out, i was severe shock. i couldn't stop screaming, and crying. i couldn't find my phone and i could see and didn't know what happened to my glasses.

the first real thought i had was to say a prayer, so i said a quick prayer to my heavenly father that me and josie would be ok and make it thru this. after that i opened my door so i could breathe better, the seatbelt and airbag hit me so hard i couldn't breathe then add on my asthma and i was a mess. when i opened my door i realized i was on the road still and freaked out more, i turned on my hazard lights, and tried to move my car but it wouldn't move it was completely dead. i then started screaming and crying more. im not sure how much time had gone by, but by now there were a few cars that had pulled over. A man came over to me and asked if i was ok, i was crying so hard i could barely answer the only thing i kept saying was im pregnant, im pregnant. he then gently put his hand on my shoulder and told me to calm down and take a few deep breaths. So i did, and was able to tell him i couldn't breathe adn that my chest hurt really bad, and that my hips and pelvis hurt too. he asked if i could walk, and i said yes. he then proceeded to help me out of the car and helped me over to his truck.  he called 911 and after let me use his phone to call jesse and work. it was such a long time until the ambulance got there (well it felt long) in that time an off duty cop and firefighter pulled over, and both did an assessment on me and checked me over, then the ambulance came, and when they saw the damage the freaked out and immediatley put me on a spine board and c-collar. they said that my car had hit with such force that i could have some serious injuries. that freaked me out. so in the ambulance they started to do all there assessment, and they had to cut my scrub top off (my favorite one :( ) and my garment top off ( a new one i got for my bday) so they could check out my belly and chest. at this time i started to notice that josie wasn't moving at all, usually she is pretty active, so this worried me alot!

we made it to the ER pretty quick and from there I was taken care of by a awesome staff of RN's and drs and techs. the first persons face i saw was a guy named Russell, I looked up at him and said "Hi, Russell" with a little smile. he had to take a second look at me and then looked at teh doctor and said holy cow she is one of us! Russell is one of the transport guys we work with at the hospital and brings over our new admits all the time. it was nice seeing a familiar face.  so once in the Er, they started an IV, did an xray of my pelvis and chest. then an CT scan of my chest and neck. luckily i had to breaks, and i just severily bruised my chest and ribs. then they checked on baby, and did an quick US, everything looked good on that but to be safe they wanted me to be admitted to Labor and Delivery and be observed on the fetal monitors for 24hrs. and make sure baby stayed ok and that my placent didn't abrupt. by this time jesse was there with me which helped a ton. i was so scared and anxiety ridden. this was the most terrifying thing that has ever happened to me, and the whole time i couldn't help but worry about Josie and if she would be ok, i was so scared i would lose her, or go into early labor. Jesse was so strong for the both of us, and really helped to calm my spirit. he is such a great support system. so now we just had to wait to be transported over to L&D, so while we waited jesse called his family to let them know what was happening, i waited to call my parents till later because they were on vacation and had just gotten there so i didn't want to worry them to much. 

Ok I will write about the rest of my hospital stay adn everything else tomorrow, im exhausted and to be honest i still have a hard time thinking about the accident, i haven't been sleeping due to nightmares and flashbacks. so im going to cut this into two post.

24 Weeks

woohoo Im 24 weeks! and man my belly has grown! which is nice because i finally feel pregnant! :)  Baby Josie sure has started to move like crazy, this last week i swear she hasn't stopped at all! she is all over the place, but its good to finally feel her move. I can't believe how fast time has gone by, she is going to be here before we know it! we have finally picked out a color for the nursery, and i started to make a baby quilt for her crib. and we got a killer deal on a changing table, it just needs a coat of paint. so i think things are slowly coming together. we just really need to empty out the office so we can start moving babies stuff in there. but we have to find places for everything that was in there. oh well. Im feeling good, just tired. work is going good, but its getting harder and harder to work three shifts in a row, by the end of the week my feet are killing me and my back!!  so with this next schedule im going to space out my work week a bit. 

21 weeks over half way there!

ok here is a quick post with a belly picture! i know i have been slacking on those.

pregnancy update, i am 21 weeks, last week at my doctors appointment everything went well, baby and i are both healthy. the doctor did seem concerned that i had only gained 7lbs so far, but said baby is growing fine so as long as i eat healthy an make sure to eat i will be good. the problem is i dont have an appetite. yes i eat, but these are things i have been craving and could eat all day! : pancakes (seriously love them, i was so excited tues was national free pancake day at ihop! totally ate 2 short stacks ) grilled cheese, mac and cheese, banana peppers, sherbert with sprite, apple sauce, ham and cheese hot pockets. and i think thats it for now. but mainly all i want is pancakes mmmm.......\
My belly is starting to pop out, and i only have a like two stretch marks :), my boobs have gotten huge! which is so nice, since i have been a flat girl my whole life. maybe that was a little TMI but oh well. hormonal wise i have been good, sometimes i snap over silly things but then apologize right after. but no crazy crying spells.  my migraines have gotten much better, i went to the chiropracter and it helped a ton! still tired but not as bad as the 1st trimester.
We are starting to work on babys nursery :) well thinking about it, i can't decide on fabric for her bedding which is causing lots of stress because im not to great with sewing and i plan on making her bedding (with the help of my sister in law and mother in law) we are going  to paint her nursery aqua, pink and yellow, or at least those are the colors i am going to do.
We  finally picked out a name for our little girl :) she is going to be Josie, after jesse's grandma, we are still working on a middle name but i love Josie its going to fit her perfectly.

so on a different note, since thats all i can think about baby right now, starting Monday i will be full time Days at the hospital!!! this is awesome because i was having a really hard time working two days and one night shift, it was definantly taking a toll on my body. so im excited.

ok here is my belly picture :)

21 weeks :)

sorry its sideways i can't figure out how to turn it.

its a ..........

So today we had our official ultrasound to find out what our little one will be!! it was so very exciting :) but first im going to tell you about our weekend. we were able to go up north this past weekend to visit family, and celebrate my little sisters 19th birthday :) so we went up thursday night, and spent it eating dinner with jesse's family, we went up to tad and sarahs which was really fun. we ate yummy food played with my neices and of course played a game of settlers. then friday we went shopping with my mom to look at some baby things, and i got some new maternity clothes :) it was a long but very fun day. i feel a little more prepared for this baby, we now know what stroller and carseat we want, then that night we went over to Orem Community Hospital, (thats where my mom works) and we played with the Ultrasound machine, we wanted to see what the baby was, which we did, but i will tell you later :) it was so fun to play with the ultrasound machine and watch our little one, man they sure are a mover, and kicker and puncher. haha then saturday we went and saw a movie with my mom and dad, we say This Means War, it was really cute and funny. it was such a nice weekened. very relaxing and i really enjoyed visiting with my family. on monday we were able to get a sweet deal on a glider rocker w/ ottoman for 89$ brand new, it was normally 250$ so i think we got an awesome deal. also we are getting a changing table today for 15$ thats only a year onld and still in great condition! oh happy day! i love finding awesome deals. ok so now to the fun part!!

so today was my 20 week US and appointment, but the appointment had to be cancelled because the doctor had to go deliver a baby. but we still did the US, it was awesome baby is healthy and growing right on track. and we found out that we are having a ................GIRL :) i am so stinking excited. i would of been happy with either, but girls are so fun to dress up.  i will post my US pictures when i get a chance to scan them, but she sure is cute!

Christmas 2011

I know i suck at blogging, but here is our post on what we did for Christmas this year. :) enjoy ps there will be a baby update and pic at the end so keep reading.

So this year i was lucky enough to get 6 days off of work, and that included Christmas eve and Christmas :) yay me. so we packed up all our gear and doggies and headed to my parents house in Spanish Fork on Dec. 23rd. I had worked the night before so jesse let me get some sleep before we headed up. which was good because i wasn't feeling to hot, i had to pull over on my way home from work and vomit, (fun i know) but after some sleep i felt ready to go. so we headed up and made it in good time, but once i got to my parents i started to feel nauseaous, which has been an issue all first trimester. but i shrugged it off. that night i went shopping with my dad and jesse for stocking stuffers and last minute things and i must give my dad credit he did really good this year on my moms stocking ;) and jesse did much better this year on mine :).
     So after shopping we got home and i could tell i was dehydrated which isn't good with pregnancy and i was on antibiotics for a UTI. i knew i was being stupid and started to drink a gatoraid and lots of water and decided that the next day i would be better. so on Chirstmas Eve we headed up to Jesse's sisters house (Sarah) where we spent the day and evening with them. i wasn't feeling to good but i wasn't going to let that spoil my christmas. we were lucky enough this year to have Chelsea,Andrew and Ila come out from Maryland so it was really fun hanging out with them and playing with Ila she is so stinking cute! jesse's brother Ben, and his Wife lexi and sariah even came down. so it was the whole winward clan together. and man it has been a long time since we have all been together so we got a new family picture :) anywho it was a great night, we did a nativty with the neices, and jesse (he wasn't so happy about being in it, but was a good sport). then every year they do a cute little program where the neices (we have no nephews in the family yet. ) get dressed up as santas helpers and the men (dads nad uncle) wear reindeer ears and pull the girls around in a sleigh as they hand out cute little santa gifts. it was so cute, i got some awesome twilight magnents :) then we went up to eat yummy fondue and then ham and potatoes, then we all played just dance 3 which is the funnest game ever! i got it for christmas and im so happy its whats going to keep me fit this pregnancy.
after all that we went up and got the girls ready for bed as we exchanged some gifts. by this time i was not feeling so hot, so we headed back to my parents at like 10pm, where we put together our stockings got in our Christmas pjs (mine had cute owls on them and jesses were superheros ) then i went to bed because i ddint feel good. well at like 1230am i woke up with severe pain in my stomach and lower back, and i started to vomit. and mind you it was bad! i was so uncontrollable that i would think i was done just to run back in the bathroom, poor jesse was awake taking care of me, i was a mess crying, in pain and i didn't know what was wrong or going on. i just knew i couldn't stop vomiting and i couldn't keep anything down. so i had jesse go get my dad to give me a blessing to see if that would help, that calmed me down a little bit, but i was still in a lot of pain. by then my mom had come down (she is a nurse too) and told me that i needed to go to the ER, that i was severly dehydrated and that there was nothing i could do at home. so at 130am me and jesse headed up to Orem Community Hospital (thats where my mom works) and they got us right in. they immediatly started me on IV fluids and gave me some zofran, which didn't help. i was still retching and vomiting so bad, i felt bad for the other patients because i am not a quiet vomiter. :( i still was feeling so sick and the pain was really bad. at this point the doctor came in and jesse told him i had a UTI and that i wasn't feeling better from that yet and i had been on abx for 4 days. so he deduced that my pain was from a bad reaction to the abx, and switched those,  they continued to give me fluids, i got 2L. and then finally gave me some phenergan.
finally at around 7am Christmas morning the discharged me, we then had the fun task of looking for an open pharmacy,( thank you wal-greens) got my abx and phenergan and went home, me and jesse slept the day away until about 4pm when my mom came to check on us and ask if we wanted to come open presents. man i felt so out of it and still felt yucky but i decided it was christmas and i should at least open my gifts, so we went up to do that, my Aunt and uncle came down from ogden so they were there too, i opened my gifts kinda like a zombie, thanked everyone and went back to bed, i slept the rest of the day and didn't wake up till like 1pm the next day. What a sad christmas, but oh well, i was out of it the rest of the trip, i couldn't really eat, but i did stay hydrated, i ended up losing like 8lbs. :( i also felt bad because jesse got sick with the flu two days later and we weren't able to really go visit his sister chelsea before we had to go home. but what can you do when you are sick.
so that was the story of our uneventful chrismas. we did get very spoiled this year :) so thank you everyone we loved all our gifts.

ok so here is an update of baby winward, after christmas break it took me like two weeks to finally get feeling better, then i had a good solid week of feeling well, then i started to get migraines, really bad ones that would make me dizzy lightheaded, and blurry vision, my bp would drop and i would have to lie down. so i get these headaches about two to three times a week,and on Sudnay i started to cramp and spot a little bit, so we went to the ER just to be safe, and everything was found to be good, we got to see an US of our little one, and the LO is measuring good and looks to be healthy :).  and this past week we went in for our 15 week apt (yay second trimester!) and got another confirmation from Dr. Sanders that all is well and we are both healthy, he is having me try some allergy meds for my headaches, and if that doesn't work i get to go talk to a different doctor about them and most likely get on a beta blocker to help stop them. but i am feeling well, im getting some energy back and no more nausea!! i still dont really have an appetite. but i have learned to keep some food in my belly and i do well. so anywho there you go. we are so very excited for this baby adn i can't wait to find out if its a boy or girls :)

ok now for pics from christmas and the baby

1st prenatal visit!

so today was our first prenatal visit. we got to see our baby today! so exciting especially because he/she finally looks like a baby and it makes it seem real! :) we got to hear the heartbeat, it was 179 and the doctor told us we have a strong baby and that baby is all healthy and growing strong! best news ever. :) yay so exciting we got our little goodie bag of pregnancy info today at our appointment so i spent most the afternoon going thru all of the info and man there is a lot of stuff to learn and money to save, but it is all worth it. we are so excited.  here is a picture of our little one.

Merry Christmas to US!

First let me say i know im a bad blogger, i lost my power cord for my camera so i havent been taking many pictures and i like to blog and post pictures, also our other camera i took pictures on i can't remember how to download the pictures. ugh oh well so with that pathetic excuse for not blogging out of the way lets get to the good stuff.

We have some very exciting news to announce! we are going to be parents! you heard that right :) I am pregnant! yay we are so very very excited about this (and a little scared). I will be 9 weeks this wednesday. i bet you all want to hear our story of how we found out. so here you go.

back in October, all month i had kinda been feeling yucky, but didn't think anything of it until the end of the month, i was looking on my phone at my period tracker(lame i know) and noticed that it said my cycle this month was going to be like 40 days, which is way off, so i got me thinking as to when i was really due for a period. i am normally very regular so looking back i realized i was due to start that next week. so on the 27th of October we had a going away party for one of the nurses i work with that was retiring, so i drove down to st. george that day and at the party i noticed that after i ate i got really nauseous, and then i thougth man i have to pee all the time, and i thought maybe i am pregnant? we had been trying so it was possible. so as i was driving home, i felt so sick i almost threw up while driving, i know gross, but luckily i made it home without any accidents, once i got home i went and got a pregnancy test and took it, little did jesse know taht this is what i was doing. so when he got home from work i showed him the test, there were two lines, one of course was very very light but i had never had this type of result before so in my heart i thought yes! i am pregnant. Jesse was very skeptical and said that we should wait a week and test again, since my period was due. man that was a long week i was so scared i was going to start my period. but come Nov. 1st i tested again, but before that, on Halloween we had a party and i was putting my costume on and man did i feel fat! i was so stinking bloated and my urge to pee had intensified same with the nausea. so that next morning i tested again, and right away i got two bright pink lines :) i texted teh picture to jesse and said im pregnant!

Even after those two pregnancy test i still wasn't very confident that i was pregnant because according to when my last period was i would only be like 4 weeks pregnant and that is very early to be getting a postitive pregnancy test. So i called my Dr. and talked with him, and let him know that in sept i didn't have a period and my period in Oct was very light and short. So he suggested that we come in for a viability scan, and some blood test. so that week we headed in, and he did an Ultra sound, and he saw a very small gestational sac, he said that yes i was pregnant but it was still to early to tell if it was going to progress, so he wanted me to get my blood drawn then come back in 48hrs and get it drawn again and see what my levels were at. so i did, my first labs were not where they should of been, only 5000 andyou want them above 8000. so i was sad and very nervous that this baby wasn't going to grow, but when i went back in to have it checked again they had tripled! so the doctor said come back in a week and we will do another US.

So one week later we go back and see that there is definantly a baby there, we could see the little heart beat going crazy. he said i was 5 weeks adn 5 days along. so my due date is July 11th, 2012. me and jesse are so very excited adn happy to have this child :)

Ok now for the stories on how we told our families, I can't keep a secret and almost spilled the beans many a time over the phone, but i wanted to tell my family when i went up and we were picking up my little brother from his mission, and i felt it fitting to tell them then because this baby is due on Austins bday :) so we were at the airport, Austin had made it out to us, we did the whole hugs, tears, congrats, and when things started to die down and we were about to go, i stopped my family and said i had an annnouncment to make, my dad immediatly blurted out "your pregnant!" i just ignored him and turned to my brother austing and told him that he is going to have a suprise on his birthday this year, that he was going to be an UNLCE! then i burst into tears, everyone was crying and happy, my mom and dad especially.  it was a great day.

now onto jesse's family, we waited to tell them until we were headed up for thanksgiving. we got a card for jesse's mom that sang a song and made a copy of our ultra sound picture (which just looks like a blob) and put it inside. the card said something like congrats, so exciting, way to go, ect. jesse picked it out. so when we got up there that night, it was way late but she was still awake so we went into her room and started to talk a bit then jesse said he had a card for her, she thought it was for turkey day, so as she was reading it she kinda had a confused look on her face, but once she opened it up and saw the picture she was speechless, she just looked at us then asked is this real? we immediatly said yes and she jumped up to give us hugs and kisses. she was so very excited, she said she had been so worried since my surgery that we would have a hard time getting pregnant, and that this is a huge blessing :)  it was a very great night. then the next day we told jesse's sister and her husband the same way with the card, adn they were also very excited for us.

wow long post sorry. but there you go, hopefully i will keep this blog updated with all the baby info, we go in for our first prenatal visit next monday. i think then things will start to feel real, right now it is all surreal, except the nausea and tiredness. i dont get morning sickness i get all day sickness it really sucks and kicks my butt.