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So today we had our official ultrasound to find out what our little one will be!! it was so very exciting :) but first im going to tell you about our weekend. we were able to go up north this past weekend to visit family, and celebrate my little sisters 19th birthday :) so we went up thursday night, and spent it eating dinner with jesse's family, we went up to tad and sarahs which was really fun. we ate yummy food played with my neices and of course played a game of settlers. then friday we went shopping with my mom to look at some baby things, and i got some new maternity clothes :) it was a long but very fun day. i feel a little more prepared for this baby, we now know what stroller and carseat we want, then that night we went over to Orem Community Hospital, (thats where my mom works) and we played with the Ultrasound machine, we wanted to see what the baby was, which we did, but i will tell you later :) it was so fun to play with the ultrasound machine and watch our little one, man they sure are a mover, and kicker and puncher. haha then saturday we went and saw a movie with my mom and dad, we say This Means War, it was really cute and funny. it was such a nice weekened. very relaxing and i really enjoyed visiting with my family. on monday we were able to get a sweet deal on a glider rocker w/ ottoman for 89$ brand new, it was normally 250$ so i think we got an awesome deal. also we are getting a changing table today for 15$ thats only a year onld and still in great condition! oh happy day! i love finding awesome deals. ok so now to the fun part!!

so today was my 20 week US and appointment, but the appointment had to be cancelled because the doctor had to go deliver a baby. but we still did the US, it was awesome baby is healthy and growing right on track. and we found out that we are having a ................GIRL :) i am so stinking excited. i would of been happy with either, but girls are so fun to dress up.  i will post my US pictures when i get a chance to scan them, but she sure is cute!

Christmas 2011

I know i suck at blogging, but here is our post on what we did for Christmas this year. :) enjoy ps there will be a baby update and pic at the end so keep reading.

So this year i was lucky enough to get 6 days off of work, and that included Christmas eve and Christmas :) yay me. so we packed up all our gear and doggies and headed to my parents house in Spanish Fork on Dec. 23rd. I had worked the night before so jesse let me get some sleep before we headed up. which was good because i wasn't feeling to hot, i had to pull over on my way home from work and vomit, (fun i know) but after some sleep i felt ready to go. so we headed up and made it in good time, but once i got to my parents i started to feel nauseaous, which has been an issue all first trimester. but i shrugged it off. that night i went shopping with my dad and jesse for stocking stuffers and last minute things and i must give my dad credit he did really good this year on my moms stocking ;) and jesse did much better this year on mine :).
     So after shopping we got home and i could tell i was dehydrated which isn't good with pregnancy and i was on antibiotics for a UTI. i knew i was being stupid and started to drink a gatoraid and lots of water and decided that the next day i would be better. so on Chirstmas Eve we headed up to Jesse's sisters house (Sarah) where we spent the day and evening with them. i wasn't feeling to good but i wasn't going to let that spoil my christmas. we were lucky enough this year to have Chelsea,Andrew and Ila come out from Maryland so it was really fun hanging out with them and playing with Ila she is so stinking cute! jesse's brother Ben, and his Wife lexi and sariah even came down. so it was the whole winward clan together. and man it has been a long time since we have all been together so we got a new family picture :) anywho it was a great night, we did a nativty with the neices, and jesse (he wasn't so happy about being in it, but was a good sport). then every year they do a cute little program where the neices (we have no nephews in the family yet. ) get dressed up as santas helpers and the men (dads nad uncle) wear reindeer ears and pull the girls around in a sleigh as they hand out cute little santa gifts. it was so cute, i got some awesome twilight magnents :) then we went up to eat yummy fondue and then ham and potatoes, then we all played just dance 3 which is the funnest game ever! i got it for christmas and im so happy its whats going to keep me fit this pregnancy.
after all that we went up and got the girls ready for bed as we exchanged some gifts. by this time i was not feeling so hot, so we headed back to my parents at like 10pm, where we put together our stockings got in our Christmas pjs (mine had cute owls on them and jesses were superheros ) then i went to bed because i ddint feel good. well at like 1230am i woke up with severe pain in my stomach and lower back, and i started to vomit. and mind you it was bad! i was so uncontrollable that i would think i was done just to run back in the bathroom, poor jesse was awake taking care of me, i was a mess crying, in pain and i didn't know what was wrong or going on. i just knew i couldn't stop vomiting and i couldn't keep anything down. so i had jesse go get my dad to give me a blessing to see if that would help, that calmed me down a little bit, but i was still in a lot of pain. by then my mom had come down (she is a nurse too) and told me that i needed to go to the ER, that i was severly dehydrated and that there was nothing i could do at home. so at 130am me and jesse headed up to Orem Community Hospital (thats where my mom works) and they got us right in. they immediatly started me on IV fluids and gave me some zofran, which didn't help. i was still retching and vomiting so bad, i felt bad for the other patients because i am not a quiet vomiter. :( i still was feeling so sick and the pain was really bad. at this point the doctor came in and jesse told him i had a UTI and that i wasn't feeling better from that yet and i had been on abx for 4 days. so he deduced that my pain was from a bad reaction to the abx, and switched those,  they continued to give me fluids, i got 2L. and then finally gave me some phenergan.
finally at around 7am Christmas morning the discharged me, we then had the fun task of looking for an open pharmacy,( thank you wal-greens) got my abx and phenergan and went home, me and jesse slept the day away until about 4pm when my mom came to check on us and ask if we wanted to come open presents. man i felt so out of it and still felt yucky but i decided it was christmas and i should at least open my gifts, so we went up to do that, my Aunt and uncle came down from ogden so they were there too, i opened my gifts kinda like a zombie, thanked everyone and went back to bed, i slept the rest of the day and didn't wake up till like 1pm the next day. What a sad christmas, but oh well, i was out of it the rest of the trip, i couldn't really eat, but i did stay hydrated, i ended up losing like 8lbs. :( i also felt bad because jesse got sick with the flu two days later and we weren't able to really go visit his sister chelsea before we had to go home. but what can you do when you are sick.
so that was the story of our uneventful chrismas. we did get very spoiled this year :) so thank you everyone we loved all our gifts.

ok so here is an update of baby winward, after christmas break it took me like two weeks to finally get feeling better, then i had a good solid week of feeling well, then i started to get migraines, really bad ones that would make me dizzy lightheaded, and blurry vision, my bp would drop and i would have to lie down. so i get these headaches about two to three times a week,and on Sudnay i started to cramp and spot a little bit, so we went to the ER just to be safe, and everything was found to be good, we got to see an US of our little one, and the LO is measuring good and looks to be healthy :).  and this past week we went in for our 15 week apt (yay second trimester!) and got another confirmation from Dr. Sanders that all is well and we are both healthy, he is having me try some allergy meds for my headaches, and if that doesn't work i get to go talk to a different doctor about them and most likely get on a beta blocker to help stop them. but i am feeling well, im getting some energy back and no more nausea!! i still dont really have an appetite. but i have learned to keep some food in my belly and i do well. so anywho there you go. we are so very excited for this baby adn i can't wait to find out if its a boy or girls :)

ok now for pics from christmas and the baby

1st prenatal visit!

so today was our first prenatal visit. we got to see our baby today! so exciting especially because he/she finally looks like a baby and it makes it seem real! :) we got to hear the heartbeat, it was 179 and the doctor told us we have a strong baby and that baby is all healthy and growing strong! best news ever. :) yay so exciting we got our little goodie bag of pregnancy info today at our appointment so i spent most the afternoon going thru all of the info and man there is a lot of stuff to learn and money to save, but it is all worth it. we are so excited.  here is a picture of our little one.

Merry Christmas to US!

First let me say i know im a bad blogger, i lost my power cord for my camera so i havent been taking many pictures and i like to blog and post pictures, also our other camera i took pictures on i can't remember how to download the pictures. ugh oh well so with that pathetic excuse for not blogging out of the way lets get to the good stuff.

We have some very exciting news to announce! we are going to be parents! you heard that right :) I am pregnant! yay we are so very very excited about this (and a little scared). I will be 9 weeks this wednesday. i bet you all want to hear our story of how we found out. so here you go.

back in October, all month i had kinda been feeling yucky, but didn't think anything of it until the end of the month, i was looking on my phone at my period tracker(lame i know) and noticed that it said my cycle this month was going to be like 40 days, which is way off, so i got me thinking as to when i was really due for a period. i am normally very regular so looking back i realized i was due to start that next week. so on the 27th of October we had a going away party for one of the nurses i work with that was retiring, so i drove down to st. george that day and at the party i noticed that after i ate i got really nauseous, and then i thougth man i have to pee all the time, and i thought maybe i am pregnant? we had been trying so it was possible. so as i was driving home, i felt so sick i almost threw up while driving, i know gross, but luckily i made it home without any accidents, once i got home i went and got a pregnancy test and took it, little did jesse know taht this is what i was doing. so when he got home from work i showed him the test, there were two lines, one of course was very very light but i had never had this type of result before so in my heart i thought yes! i am pregnant. Jesse was very skeptical and said that we should wait a week and test again, since my period was due. man that was a long week i was so scared i was going to start my period. but come Nov. 1st i tested again, but before that, on Halloween we had a party and i was putting my costume on and man did i feel fat! i was so stinking bloated and my urge to pee had intensified same with the nausea. so that next morning i tested again, and right away i got two bright pink lines :) i texted teh picture to jesse and said im pregnant!

Even after those two pregnancy test i still wasn't very confident that i was pregnant because according to when my last period was i would only be like 4 weeks pregnant and that is very early to be getting a postitive pregnancy test. So i called my Dr. and talked with him, and let him know that in sept i didn't have a period and my period in Oct was very light and short. So he suggested that we come in for a viability scan, and some blood test. so that week we headed in, and he did an Ultra sound, and he saw a very small gestational sac, he said that yes i was pregnant but it was still to early to tell if it was going to progress, so he wanted me to get my blood drawn then come back in 48hrs and get it drawn again and see what my levels were at. so i did, my first labs were not where they should of been, only 5000 andyou want them above 8000. so i was sad and very nervous that this baby wasn't going to grow, but when i went back in to have it checked again they had tripled! so the doctor said come back in a week and we will do another US.

So one week later we go back and see that there is definantly a baby there, we could see the little heart beat going crazy. he said i was 5 weeks adn 5 days along. so my due date is July 11th, 2012. me and jesse are so very excited adn happy to have this child :)

Ok now for the stories on how we told our families, I can't keep a secret and almost spilled the beans many a time over the phone, but i wanted to tell my family when i went up and we were picking up my little brother from his mission, and i felt it fitting to tell them then because this baby is due on Austins bday :) so we were at the airport, Austin had made it out to us, we did the whole hugs, tears, congrats, and when things started to die down and we were about to go, i stopped my family and said i had an annnouncment to make, my dad immediatly blurted out "your pregnant!" i just ignored him and turned to my brother austing and told him that he is going to have a suprise on his birthday this year, that he was going to be an UNLCE! then i burst into tears, everyone was crying and happy, my mom and dad especially.  it was a great day.

now onto jesse's family, we waited to tell them until we were headed up for thanksgiving. we got a card for jesse's mom that sang a song and made a copy of our ultra sound picture (which just looks like a blob) and put it inside. the card said something like congrats, so exciting, way to go, ect. jesse picked it out. so when we got up there that night, it was way late but she was still awake so we went into her room and started to talk a bit then jesse said he had a card for her, she thought it was for turkey day, so as she was reading it she kinda had a confused look on her face, but once she opened it up and saw the picture she was speechless, she just looked at us then asked is this real? we immediatly said yes and she jumped up to give us hugs and kisses. she was so very excited, she said she had been so worried since my surgery that we would have a hard time getting pregnant, and that this is a huge blessing :)  it was a very great night. then the next day we told jesse's sister and her husband the same way with the card, adn they were also very excited for us.

wow long post sorry. but there you go, hopefully i will keep this blog updated with all the baby info, we go in for our first prenatal visit next monday. i think then things will start to feel real, right now it is all surreal, except the nausea and tiredness. i dont get morning sickness i get all day sickness it really sucks and kicks my butt.

I love my Job!

Can I just say that i really really love my job, i am so very greatful that i got this job. It is so rewarding, I love working on the Rehab floor, watching people come in not being able to walk by themselves, or do any of there normal daily cares, and watching them work with therapy and progress is so rewarding, I just discharged a patient that i had the opportunity to take care of for the past month and can i say i just fell in love with her, she is such an amazing woman and i truly admire her strength, she came to us worse for wear, and as I discharged her today we discussed how far she has come, and she told me how greatful she was for me and that i was a great nurse. her husband also gave me a hug and told me how much he appreciated me for taking care of his wife. it really meant alot to me. also today i got a compliment from two different therapist today, one thought i had been a nurse for a lot longer than a year and a half, and told me that i really was doing a great job and that i am an assett to our team. :) also one therapist told me that i did such a good job teaching this patient and her family about trach care and that she is really impressed with me. man it was a crazy day at work but man it made my day, and it made me truly love my job. i just love watching these people progress and seeing how we help them to better themselves. yay for being a nurse today!

here is a picture of my cute new neice ava, and one of me and my momma at our bunco tournament :) so fun.

surgery

Just an FYI, this post is kinda personal and it will be a bit detailed but since im using this as my journal also i want it written down. so if you want to read it go ahead but if you dont i don't care.

Ok so about a year and a half ago i went of birth control for a year, not to try and get pregnant but because it was making me crazy. but during that year i noted that my cramps were getting really bad, and that i was having a lot of pain with ovulation, so after a year of this we decided to go back on birth control to see if it helped. also i thought i had irritable bowl syndrome because anything i would eat would give me a very painful stomach ache. ok so after a year of this i went to Dr. Saunders office to get a check up and go back on birth control. so we put me back on the BC and had me do a food journal so see what is making my stomach upset, well i did that for 2 weeks and did narrow down a bunch of things to cut out of my diet and i did that and was fine for a long time. but about 4 months ago things started to get very painful again, my period were really bad and had become irregular (which ihave never been before). and i started to have a lot of pain during sex. well be not liking to go to the doctor i waited until last month to go in, and that was only because jesse was making me. but i finally went.
     my first doctors apt went ok, he did an ultrasound to make sure i wasn't pregnant or that i didn't have any cysts on my ovaries or ueturus. well that came back ok and all clear, but with all my symptoms and my age he told me that it was most likely Endometriosis.  wow that word scared me. i know what it is and that its common and can be treated but still hearing that you might have it is scary. well when we started discussing my options he basically said get pregnant, or and this is what he recommended was for him to do a laproscopic surgery to make for 100% that i do have Endometriosis and then while he is doing the surgery he can clean out any lesions. well after talking with Jesse and praying we got a very strong feeling that we needed to do the surgery. so we scheduled it, we had to wait a month, so my new insurance would kick in.
     So this last wednesday i went in a 0600 for my surgery. ps all my nurses were awesome! anywho they got me all set up and my IV hooked up, the anesthesiologist came in and talked with me and same with dr. sanders. then they shipped me off to the OR, the last thing i remember is the anesthesiologist telling me he was giving me so propaphol, and then like 2 seconds later i was out! I remember waking up after surgery and having a very hard time breathing and i kinda started to freak, but my nurse was right there and i got a treatment and was much better, i remember thru this whole thing i couldn't open my eyes yet. I was so groggy! then next thing i remember i was back in my room and i was hurting and all i wanted was jesse, the nurses were probably bugged because they would ask how my pain was and i would ask for my husband. haha. but they were great and called him right away to come sit with me. i got some nice dilaudid and morphine and that took my pain right away! well it took me quite a while to wake up fully, i guess i developed a rash during surgery so they gave me some benadryl and man one little pill of that at home knocks me out and they gave me like double that! haha.
     So fast forward to me waking up. Dr. Saunders came in and told me that i did great during surgery, and that i was a really good thing that we did surgery when we did because he found moderate endometriosis. he said that there was alot of scar tissue, and that i had lesions all over my intestines and ueturus. he then went on to say that my ovaries had be fused to my pelvis wall from old scar tissue. so he had to go in and basically rehaul my repoductive system. he also let me know that one of my fallopian tubes looks like it is blocked. :( but that i shouldn't worry that we caught it in time and that i shouldn't have trouble getting pregnant in the future. wow can i tell you that all this information was very overwhelming to me, im so glad jesse was there with me, because he was with it enought to ask all the questions. and Dr. Saunders explained everything so well. but still i was happy but sad witht he news. so happy that we did the surgery because if i let it go i would probably not be able to get pregnant later on in life, kinda mad at myself for letting go so long without getting check. and scared about the blocked tube info. im so grateful that that was the only major problem found.
     so i have three inscisions one in my belly button and two on my pelvic region. and man can i tell you i was in alot of pain for the alst week.  my stomach has been very swollen and bloated, i looked pregnant for the first three days, now i just look fat, but i promise you its still swollen. its been tough recovering because i can't sleep on lying flat on my back, or on my side, i have been sleeping on my couch for the last week because i have to to sit up to be comfortable. which sucks but oh well.  so what does this all mean now? what do i do to keep the endometriosis from coming back, well here is the answer.  i have to get depo leupron shots for 6 months, these shots stop the production of estrogen in my body stopping my periods but it also stops the productions of lesions growing. the down side is that these shots are expensive. :( but the other answer is to get pregnant. and we plan on doing that soon. we are going to do three months of shots then try and get pregnant. and Dr. Saunders thinks that is a good plan because three months gives my body adequate time to heal and recover. so come November we will be trying to get pregnant which im so excited about! i have wanted to have a baby for the last 6 months or so, and we feel like this is our answer adn our time to have a baby. the sad thing is is that once we have a baby we can't wait to long inbetween kids or i can grow more lesions and that can cause infertility so the doctor suggest not waiting more than 2 years between kids. wow im not sure if i ok with that but i will do what i have to do. and plus i have to have a kid first before i worry about that.
     ok so that has been my life for the past few months, hopefully now i won't be in as much pain. im still recovering, definantly not in as much pain as i was, but still in a feeling of uncomfortalbeness and not sleeping well, but after everything he had to repair im ok with having to take a few weeks to recover! but i have to go to bed now because i go back to work tomorrow! so wish me luck!

Colorado Trip 2011

Sorry I have been a horrible blogger. life has been very crazy the last two months. I started my new job at the hospital the end of june, and can i tell you how much I love it! it is such a positive place to work and everyone has been so amazing! they are so very accepting and willing to help me learn, and it is a great work environment, it is so rewarding to watch someone grow and progress. and be able to go back to there homes. this job really makes me appreciate being a nurse!

ok so I dont know what else to update on, jesse had his birthday he is the big 26 now, we also had our 4th year anniversary, both not very exciting this year, i had to work both days, but its all good. we sure do love each other.

So this last week we went to Colorado to visit my mom and dads side of the family, we went to Denver the first few days and then to Salida for the last part to see my dads side.  while we were in Denver we had the opportunity to visit with my nana and popo, my Uncle Will and Vanessa and there amazing kids, Clay and Isabella. these two kids are the cutest kids ever!! we also got to see my aunt Raelynn and Marilyn, and my cousin shyloh. it was such a blast, we went to waterworld, the US's largest waterpark, it was awesome! we had so much fun! it was overcast so of course i forgot to reapply my sunscreen and i got completely fried!! and so did poor jesse. we also had a bunch of fun bbq's with family members. i just love my family so much and i LOVE DENVER! it is one of my most favorite places to go visit. i could live there some day.

then we headed to Salida to visit my dad's side of the family. we got to see my Grandma Green and her new husband Don, then my Aunt Carol and her kids. it was so much fun i really love this side of the family too! we had a chance to visit with them and then we also went white water rafting down the Arkansas river. it was a blast!!! the water was exceptionally high so all our rapids were 3 and 4. it was awesome i love river rafting. then after going down the river we went back to our rented cabin and had a big bbq with our family. it was so much fun, i love my little cousins they are so cute! it was so funny one of the little boys jacob, came up to me and jesse and asked if he was my dad. haha i said no he was my husband and then he asked if we had kids. i said no, and he was like why? and i just said thats a good question. he then proceeded to tell me that when a mommy gets pregnant her belly gets huge! ( he sticks his tummy out. while saying this). haha it was so cute! it was such a fun vacation, im so glad that jesse was able to come out with us and meet more of my family and see how much i love them. they are all so very loving and supporting of us and i just feel so loved by my family.

so now here are some pictures of our vacation! yay, ps jesse cut his hair into a mohawk! enjoy the pics

jesse's 26th birthday

his awesome mohawk

cute baby bella

cute cousin clay

double rainbow in Denver

my nana and popo

cute sister alex

my cousin brandon is serving his mission in Denver and we had the opportunity to take him out to dinner with his companions

clay and braelyn she is a great big sister

jesse said she was adorable! that was a first! and he actually held her adn played with her.