The Winward's

Christmas 2011

2012-01-19T20:42:00.000-08:00

I know i suck at blogging, but here is our post on what we did for Christmas this year. :) enjoy ps there will be a baby update and pic at the end so keep reading.

So this year i was lucky enough to get 6 days off of work, and that included Christmas eve and Christmas :) yay me. so we packed up all our gear and doggies and headed to my parents house in Spanish Fork on Dec. 23rd. I had worked the night before so jesse let me get some sleep before we headed up. which was good because i wasn't feeling to hot, i had to pull over on my way home from work and vomit, (fun i know) but after some sleep i felt ready to go. so we headed up and made it in good time, but once i got to my parents i started to feel nauseaous, which has been an issue all first trimester. but i shrugged it off. that night i went shopping with my dad and jesse for stocking stuffers and last minute things and i must give my dad credit he did really good this year on my moms stocking ;) and jesse did much better this year on mine :).
So after shopping we got home and i could tell i was dehydrated which isn't good with pregnancy and i was on antibiotics for a UTI. i knew i was being stupid and started to drink a gatoraid and lots of water and decided that the next day i would be better. so on Chirstmas Eve we headed up to Jesse's sisters house (Sarah) where we spent the day and evening with them. i wasn't feeling to good but i wasn't going to let that spoil my christmas. we were lucky enough this year to have Chelsea,Andrew and Ila come out from Maryland so it was really fun hanging out with them and playing with Ila she is so stinking cute! jesse's brother Ben, and his Wife lexi and sariah even came down. so it was the whole winward clan together. and man it has been a long time since we have all been together so we got a new family picture :) anywho it was a great night, we did a nativty with the neices, and jesse (he wasn't so happy about being in it, but was a good sport). then every year they do a cute little program where the neices (we have no nephews in the family yet. ) get dressed up as santas helpers and the men (dads nad uncle) wear reindeer ears and pull the girls around in a sleigh as they hand out cute little santa gifts. it was so cute, i got some awesome twilight magnents :) then we went up to eat yummy fondue and then ham and potatoes, then we all played just dance 3 which is the funnest game ever! i got it for christmas and im so happy its whats going to keep me fit this pregnancy.
after all that we went up and got the girls ready for bed as we exchanged some gifts. by this time i was not feeling so hot, so we headed back to my parents at like 10pm, where we put together our stockings got in our Christmas pjs (mine had cute owls on them and jesses were superheros ) then i went to bed because i ddint feel good. well at like 1230am i woke up with severe pain in my stomach and lower back, and i started to vomit. and mind you it was bad! i was so uncontrollable that i would think i was done just to run back in the bathroom, poor jesse was awake taking care of me, i was a mess crying, in pain and i didn't know what was wrong or going on. i just knew i couldn't stop vomiting and i couldn't keep anything down. so i had jesse go get my dad to give me a blessing to see if that would help, that calmed me down a little bit, but i was still in a lot of pain. by then my mom had come down (she is a nurse too) and told me that i needed to go to the ER, that i was severly dehydrated and that there was nothing i could do at home. so at 130am me and jesse headed up to Orem Community Hospital (thats where my mom works) and they got us right in. they immediatly started me on IV fluids and gave me some zofran, which didn't help. i was still retching and vomiting so bad, i felt bad for the other patients because i am not a quiet vomiter. :( i still was feeling so sick and the pain was really bad. at this point the doctor came in and jesse told him i had a UTI and that i wasn't feeling better from that yet and i had been on abx for 4 days. so he deduced that my pain was from a bad reaction to the abx, and switched those, they continued to give me fluids, i got 2L. and then finally gave me some phenergan.
finally at around 7am Christmas morning the discharged me, we then had the fun task of looking for an open pharmacy,( thank you wal-greens) got my abx and phenergan and went home, me and jesse slept the day away until about 4pm when my mom came to check on us and ask if we wanted to come open presents. man i felt so out of it and still felt yucky but i decided it was christmas and i should at least open my gifts, so we went up to do that, my Aunt and uncle came down from ogden so they were there too, i opened my gifts kinda like a zombie, thanked everyone and went back to bed, i slept the rest of the day and didn't wake up till like 1pm the next day. What a sad christmas, but oh well, i was out of it the rest of the trip, i couldn't really eat, but i did stay hydrated, i ended up losing like 8lbs. :( i also felt bad because jesse got sick with the flu two days later and we weren't able to really go visit his sister chelsea before we had to go home. but what can you do when you are sick.
so that was the story of our uneventful chrismas. we did get very spoiled this year :) so thank you everyone we loved all our gifts.

ok so here is an update of baby winward, after christmas break it took me like two weeks to finally get feeling better, then i had a good solid week of feeling well, then i started to get migraines, really bad ones that would make me dizzy lightheaded, and blurry vision, my bp would drop and i would have to lie down. so i get these headaches about two to three times a week,and on Sudnay i started to cramp and spot a little bit, so we went to the ER just to be safe, and everything was found to be good, we got to see an US of our little one, and the LO is measuring good and looks to be healthy :). and this past week we went in for our 15 week apt (yay second trimester!) and got another confirmation from Dr. Sanders that all is well and we are both healthy, he is having me try some allergy meds for my headaches, and if that doesn't work i get to go talk to a different doctor about them and most likely get on a beta blocker to help stop them. but i am feeling well, im getting some energy back and no more nausea!! i still dont really have an appetite. but i have learned to keep some food in my belly and i do well. so anywho there you go. we are so very excited for this baby adn i can't wait to find out if its a boy or girls :)

ok now for pics from christmas and the baby

1st prenatal visit!

2011-12-12T18:59:00.000-08:00

so today was our first prenatal visit. we got to see our baby today! so exciting especially because he/she finally looks like a baby and it makes it seem real! :) we got to hear the heartbeat, it was 179 and the doctor told us we have a strong baby and that baby is all healthy and growing strong! best news ever. :) yay so exciting we got our little goodie bag of pregnancy info today at our appointment so i spent most the afternoon going thru all of the info and man there is a lot of stuff to learn and money to save, but it is all worth it. we are so excited. here is a picture of our little one.

Merry Christmas to US!

2011-12-05T21:08:00.000-08:00

First let me say i know im a bad blogger, i lost my power cord for my camera so i havent been taking many pictures and i like to blog and post pictures, also our other camera i took pictures on i can't remember how to download the pictures. ugh oh well so with that pathetic excuse for not blogging out of the way lets get to the good stuff.

We have some very exciting news to announce! we are going to be parents! you heard that right :) I am pregnant! yay we are so very very excited about this (and a little scared). I will be 9 weeks this wednesday. i bet you all want to hear our story of how we found out. so here you go.

back in October, all month i had kinda been feeling yucky, but didn't think anything of it until the end of the month, i was looking on my phone at my period tracker(lame i know) and noticed that it said my cycle this month was going to be like 40 days, which is way off, so i got me thinking as to when i was really due for a period. i am normally very regular so looking back i realized i was due to start that next week. so on the 27th of October we had a going away party for one of the nurses i work with that was retiring, so i drove down to st. george that day and at the party i noticed that after i ate i got really nauseous, and then i thougth man i have to pee all the time, and i thought maybe i am pregnant? we had been trying so it was possible. so as i was driving home, i felt so sick i almost threw up while driving, i know gross, but luckily i made it home without any accidents, once i got home i went and got a pregnancy test and took it, little did jesse know taht this is what i was doing. so when he got home from work i showed him the test, there were two lines, one of course was very very light but i had never had this type of result before so in my heart i thought yes! i am pregnant. Jesse was very skeptical and said that we should wait a week and test again, since my period was due. man that was a long week i was so scared i was going to start my period. but come Nov. 1st i tested again, but before that, on Halloween we had a party and i was putting my costume on and man did i feel fat! i was so stinking bloated and my urge to pee had intensified same with the nausea. so that next morning i tested again, and right away i got two bright pink lines :) i texted teh picture to jesse and said im pregnant!

Even after those two pregnancy test i still wasn't very confident that i was pregnant because according to when my last period was i would only be like 4 weeks pregnant and that is very early to be getting a postitive pregnancy test. So i called my Dr. and talked with him, and let him know that in sept i didn't have a period and my period in Oct was very light and short. So he suggested that we come in for a viability scan, and some blood test. so that week we headed in, and he did an Ultra sound, and he saw a very small gestational sac, he said that yes i was pregnant but it was still to early to tell if it was going to progress, so he wanted me to get my blood drawn then come back in 48hrs and get it drawn again and see what my levels were at. so i did, my first labs were not where they should of been, only 5000 andyou want them above 8000. so i was sad and very nervous that this baby wasn't going to grow, but when i went back in to have it checked again they had tripled! so the doctor said come back in a week and we will do another US.

So one week later we go back and see that there is definantly a baby there, we could see the little heart beat going crazy. he said i was 5 weeks adn 5 days along. so my due date is July 11th, 2012. me and jesse are so very excited adn happy to have this child :)

Ok now for the stories on how we told our families, I can't keep a secret and almost spilled the beans many a time over the phone, but i wanted to tell my family when i went up and we were picking up my little brother from his mission, and i felt it fitting to tell them then because this baby is due on Austins bday :) so we were at the airport, Austin had made it out to us, we did the whole hugs, tears, congrats, and when things started to die down and we were about to go, i stopped my family and said i had an annnouncment to make, my dad immediatly blurted out "your pregnant!" i just ignored him and turned to my brother austing and told him that he is going to have a suprise on his birthday this year, that he was going to be an UNLCE! then i burst into tears, everyone was crying and happy, my mom and dad especially. it was a great day.

now onto jesse's family, we waited to tell them until we were headed up for thanksgiving. we got a card for jesse's mom that sang a song and made a copy of our ultra sound picture (which just looks like a blob) and put it inside. the card said something like congrats, so exciting, way to go, ect. jesse picked it out. so when we got up there that night, it was way late but she was still awake so we went into her room and started to talk a bit then jesse said he had a card for her, she thought it was for turkey day, so as she was reading it she kinda had a confused look on her face, but once she opened it up and saw the picture she was speechless, she just looked at us then asked is this real? we immediatly said yes and she jumped up to give us hugs and kisses. she was so very excited, she said she had been so worried since my surgery that we would have a hard time getting pregnant, and that this is a huge blessing :) it was a very great night. then the next day we told jesse's sister and her husband the same way with the card, adn they were also very excited for us.

wow long post sorry. but there you go, hopefully i will keep this blog updated with all the baby info, we go in for our first prenatal visit next monday. i think then things will start to feel real, right now it is all surreal, except the nausea and tiredness. i dont get morning sickness i get all day sickness it really sucks and kicks my butt.

I love my Job!

2011-10-14T22:19:00.000-07:00

Can I just say that i really really love my job, i am so very greatful that i got this job. It is so rewarding, I love working on the Rehab floor, watching people come in not being able to walk by themselves, or do any of there normal daily cares, and watching them work with therapy and progress is so rewarding, I just discharged a patient that i had the opportunity to take care of for the past month and can i say i just fell in love with her, she is such an amazing woman and i truly admire her strength, she came to us worse for wear, and as I discharged her today we discussed how far she has come, and she told me how greatful she was for me and that i was a great nurse. her husband also gave me a hug and told me how much he appreciated me for taking care of his wife. it really meant alot to me. also today i got a compliment from two different therapist today, one thought i had been a nurse for a lot longer than a year and a half, and told me that i really was doing a great job and that i am an assett to our team. :) also one therapist told me that i did such a good job teaching this patient and her family about trach care and that she is really impressed with me. man it was a crazy day at work but man it made my day, and it made me truly love my job. i just love watching these people progress and seeing how we help them to better themselves. yay for being a nurse today!

here is a picture of my cute new neice ava, and one of me and my momma at our bunco tournament :) so fun.

surgery

2011-07-26T19:33:00.000-07:00

Just an FYI, this post is kinda personal and it will be a bit detailed but since im using this as my journal also i want it written down. so if you want to read it go ahead but if you dont i don't care.

Ok so about a year and a half ago i went of birth control for a year, not to try and get pregnant but because it was making me crazy. but during that year i noted that my cramps were getting really bad, and that i was having a lot of pain with ovulation, so after a year of this we decided to go back on birth control to see if it helped. also i thought i had irritable bowl syndrome because anything i would eat would give me a very painful stomach ache. ok so after a year of this i went to Dr. Saunders office to get a check up and go back on birth control. so we put me back on the BC and had me do a food journal so see what is making my stomach upset, well i did that for 2 weeks and did narrow down a bunch of things to cut out of my diet and i did that and was fine for a long time. but about 4 months ago things started to get very painful again, my period were really bad and had become irregular (which ihave never been before). and i started to have a lot of pain during sex. well be not liking to go to the doctor i waited until last month to go in, and that was only because jesse was making me. but i finally went.
     my first doctors apt went ok, he did an ultrasound to make sure i wasn't pregnant or that i didn't have any cysts on my ovaries or ueturus. well that came back ok and all clear, but with all my symptoms and my age he told me that it was most likely Endometriosis. wow that word scared me. i know what it is and that its common and can be treated but still hearing that you might have it is scary. well when we started discussing my options he basically said get pregnant, or and this is what he recommended was for him to do a laproscopic surgery to make for 100% that i do have Endometriosis and then while he is doing the surgery he can clean out any lesions. well after talking with Jesse and praying we got a very strong feeling that we needed to do the surgery. so we scheduled it, we had to wait a month, so my new insurance would kick in.
     So this last wednesday i went in a 0600 for my surgery. ps all my nurses were awesome! anywho they got me all set up and my IV hooked up, the anesthesiologist came in and talked with me and same with dr. sanders. then they shipped me off to the OR, the last thing i remember is the anesthesiologist telling me he was giving me so propaphol, and then like 2 seconds later i was out! I remember waking up after surgery and having a very hard time breathing and i kinda started to freak, but my nurse was right there and i got a treatment and was much better, i remember thru this whole thing i couldn't open my eyes yet. I was so groggy! then next thing i remember i was back in my room and i was hurting and all i wanted was jesse, the nurses were probably bugged because they would ask how my pain was and i would ask for my husband. haha. but they were great and called him right away to come sit with me. i got some nice dilaudid and morphine and that took my pain right away! well it took me quite a while to wake up fully, i guess i developed a rash during surgery so they gave me some benadryl and man one little pill of that at home knocks me out and they gave me like double that! haha.
     So fast forward to me waking up. Dr. Saunders came in and told me that i did great during surgery, and that i was a really good thing that we did surgery when we did because he found moderate endometriosis. he said that there was alot of scar tissue, and that i had lesions all over my intestines and ueturus. he then went on to say that my ovaries had be fused to my pelvis wall from old scar tissue. so he had to go in and basically rehaul my repoductive system. he also let me know that one of my fallopian tubes looks like it is blocked. :( but that i shouldn't worry that we caught it in time and that i shouldn't have trouble getting pregnant in the future. wow can i tell you that all this information was very overwhelming to me, im so glad jesse was there with me, because he was with it enought to ask all the questions. and Dr. Saunders explained everything so well. but still i was happy but sad witht he news. so happy that we did the surgery because if i let it go i would probably not be able to get pregnant later on in life, kinda mad at myself for letting go so long without getting check. and scared about the blocked tube info. im so grateful that that was the only major problem found.
     so i have three inscisions one in my belly button and two on my pelvic region. and man can i tell you i was in alot of pain for the alst week. my stomach has been very swollen and bloated, i looked pregnant for the first three days, now i just look fat, but i promise you its still swollen. its been tough recovering because i can't sleep on lying flat on my back, or on my side, i have been sleeping on my couch for the last week because i have to to sit up to be comfortable. which sucks but oh well. so what does this all mean now? what do i do to keep the endometriosis from coming back, well here is the answer. i have to get depo leupron shots for 6 months, these shots stop the production of estrogen in my body stopping my periods but it also stops the productions of lesions growing. the down side is that these shots are expensive. :( but the other answer is to get pregnant. and we plan on doing that soon. we are going to do three months of shots then try and get pregnant. and Dr. Saunders thinks that is a good plan because three months gives my body adequate time to heal and recover. so come November we will be trying to get pregnant which im so excited about! i have wanted to have a baby for the last 6 months or so, and we feel like this is our answer adn our time to have a baby. the sad thing is is that once we have a baby we can't wait to long inbetween kids or i can grow more lesions and that can cause infertility so the doctor suggest not waiting more than 2 years between kids. wow im not sure if i ok with that but i will do what i have to do. and plus i have to have a kid first before i worry about that.
     ok so that has been my life for the past few months, hopefully now i won't be in as much pain. im still recovering, definantly not in as much pain as i was, but still in a feeling of uncomfortalbeness and not sleeping well, but after everything he had to repair im ok with having to take a few weeks to recover! but i have to go to bed now because i go back to work tomorrow! so wish me luck!

Colorado Trip 2011

2011-07-17T01:15:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have been a horrible blogger. life has been very crazy the last two months. I started my new job at the hospital the end of june, and can i tell you how much I love it! it is such a positive place to work and everyone has been so amazing! they are so very accepting and willing to help me learn, and it is a great work environment, it is so rewarding to watch someone grow and progress. and be able to go back to there homes. this job really makes me appreciate being a nurse!

ok so I dont know what else to update on, jesse had his birthday he is the big 26 now, we also had our 4th year anniversary, both not very exciting this year, i had to work both days, but its all good. we sure do love each other.

So this last week we went to Colorado to visit my mom and dads side of the family, we went to Denver the first few days and then to Salida for the last part to see my dads side. while we were in Denver we had the opportunity to visit with my nana and popo, my Uncle Will and Vanessa and there amazing kids, Clay and Isabella. these two kids are the cutest kids ever!! we also got to see my aunt Raelynn and Marilyn, and my cousin shyloh. it was such a blast, we went to waterworld, the US's largest waterpark, it was awesome! we had so much fun! it was overcast so of course i forgot to reapply my sunscreen and i got completely fried!! and so did poor jesse. we also had a bunch of fun bbq's with family members. i just love my family so much and i LOVE DENVER! it is one of my most favorite places to go visit. i could live there some day.

then we headed to Salida to visit my dad's side of the family. we got to see my Grandma Green and her new husband Don, then my Aunt Carol and her kids. it was so much fun i really love this side of the family too! we had a chance to visit with them and then we also went white water rafting down the Arkansas river. it was a blast!!! the water was exceptionally high so all our rapids were 3 and 4. it was awesome i love river rafting. then after going down the river we went back to our rented cabin and had a big bbq with our family. it was so much fun, i love my little cousins they are so cute! it was so funny one of the little boys jacob, came up to me and jesse and asked if he was my dad. haha i said no he was my husband and then he asked if we had kids. i said no, and he was like why? and i just said thats a good question. he then proceeded to tell me that when a mommy gets pregnant her belly gets huge! ( he sticks his tummy out. while saying this). haha it was so cute! it was such a fun vacation, im so glad that jesse was able to come out with us and meet more of my family and see how much i love them. they are all so very loving and supporting of us and i just feel so loved by my family.

so now here are some pictures of our vacation! yay, ps jesse cut his hair into a mohawk! enjoy the pics

jesse's 26th birthday

his awesome mohawk

cute baby bella

cute cousin clay

double rainbow in Denver

my nana and popo

cute sister alex

my cousin brandon is serving his mission in Denver and we had the opportunity to take him out to dinner with his companions

clay and braelyn she is a great big sister

jesse said she was adorable! that was a first! and he actually held her adn played with her.

Best news ever!!!

2011-05-21T12:45:00.000-07:00

I GOT THE JOB!!!! yay im so excited! I will be working at Dixie Regional Medical Center, 400 W campus on there Acute Rehab Unit!!! I start May 31st, yesterday i went and filled out all my new employee paperwork, and i am so freaking excited i can't wait to start! yay i will post more about it later!!! yay

2nd Job Interview!

2011-05-09T13:41:00.000-07:00

so i had given up on this job, that i interviewed for about 2 weeks ago. until last week i got a phone call for a second job interview!!! yaya im so excited! this interview is a group interview with the doctor, nurse manager, a few other nurses and the therapist that work there and basically its to see how well i fit with there team. I am way nervous but i think i will do well! i really hope i get this job it would be really good for me and jesse! yay. well we just also got back from a very short trip to jesse's moms house where we went up for mothers day. it was a nice trip. so i will keep you informed on what it going on :)

JOB INTERVIEW!!!!

2011-04-12T12:19:00.001-07:00

I will tell you about my birthday later, but for now i just want to share my good news!

I have a job interview this Friday at 10am!!!! it at Dixie Regional Medical Center and this is the best part its for Labor and Delivery!!!! i am so excited/nervous/freaked out! i really want this position!! its only part time but once i get my foot in the door things will go much easier for me! so everyone keep me in your prayers and wish me good luck! i will let you all know how it goes after friday!!!!!

lifes positive moments

2011-04-05T14:12:00.000-07:00

So I have been feeling better since my last post, thank you for all the encouraging words. I still have my down days, but im working on it. also i had the chance to go home and see my family and my best friend get married so that helped me a whole lot. then there was confrence this last weekend and that was very uplifting, i only got to watch the sunday session since i had to work saturday but it is just what i needed.

so here is what happened when we went up north. My best friend Carolyn got married!!! it was such a great experience, I was a bridesmaid which is something we always talked about as kids, and she was one of my bridesmaids so it was neat. and we also got to go to the temple. it made me so happy to be a part of her wedding, she was such a beautiful bride and ben is such a awesome man, she is going to be so happy with him! it was nice to be in on the sealing and think back on when i married jesse and the feelings i felt when i married him, and how its almost been four year! and i am still as much in love with him as i was when we got married. he has been a big help to me these last few weeks, always telling me he loves me.

So cares wedding was a great uplifting experience for me, and i also got to spend one of the days up north with my mom and sister, my sister asked someone to prefrence and needed a dress so we spent all day dress shopping, which was fun, i could tell my sister really enjoyed it, she looked so pretty in all the dresses and it was so fun seeing her face lite up when she found the dress she wanted. she had such a good time at her dance.

after we got home from up north i had to work, and me thinking i was smart picked up an extra shift, so i worked 4 12hour shifts in a row. the first two days were a breeze, and i thought the next two days would be just as easy, well i was wrong. april 1st was a very bad day! it started out great everythign was good, i had finished my morning med pass early, and i thought sweet its going to be a great day! wrong, one of my residents went out for a smoke break and when she came back she was in respiratory distress, she was having a hard time breathing and some really bad chest pain, so i started her on a breathing treatment, and gave her some nitro for the chest pain, well it never got better only worse, so i jumped into nursing mode. she was a DNR, but requested to go to the ER, but she declined so fast that she never got the chance. she pasted away 3 min after the EMT's arrived, it was a very tough experience, she was having a heart attack and it was very scary for her and me. i know i did everything that i was supposed to, and that it was very quick and she wasn't in a lot of pain. its still sad losing a resident, especially when you get to know them, and get close to them, she will be missed. but after watching confrence and hearing the lords message i know she is in a better place, where she is no longer in pain, and with her husband. so that was a very rough day, and then the next day was just as rough. i was still emotionally exhausted adn things just kept getting in the way, but i made it through.

so now i am just relaxing until i go to work again on thursday.

and my birthday is in 5 days!!! yay i dont have to work and my family is coming down so we can go four wheeling its going to be a good week : )

here are some pics of what we have been doing lately, visiting chelsea and ila, cares wedding and other junk.

feeling down

2011-03-13T23:21:00.000-07:00

let me just preface that this post is very personal, if you don't want to know you don't have to read it i just have to get these feeling off my chest.

     So these past few months I have been feeling more and more down. I feel that i don't fit in anywhere. I feel like I have no friends, that no one wants to be my friend and that its my fault, or that i am weird or annoying so people dont want to be my friend anymore. I know these feeling are completly stupid and irrational but i can't help but feel this way. I know it has to do with my depression, and i hate the fact that i have depression, and that i have no control over how it makes me feel. I hate feeling worthless and that i have no real purpose. I hate that i live so far away from my family, because right now they are the only ones i know that love me (well besides jesse) and that are truly my friends and would do anything for me. I feel so lonely down here, I hate cedar city right now. I hate that I have 4-5 days off each week, but I have no one to do things with, instead of having a group of girl friends down here and doing things with them, i end up sitting at home alone while jesse is at school, doing nothing, and that doesn't help me feel any better about myself.
     When I was in nursing school, I felt like I got along with a lot of the girls in my class, and truly felt like I had become good friends with some of them, it made me excited to know i had friends down here, and that after nursing school i would have friends to do things with, well i was wrong. I try inviting people to do things and I always get turned down, I can't help but feel left out when i hear about people getting together to do things and me not getting invited. i know this is stupid and i should just be more outgoing and invite people to do things more often, but Im afraid of the rejection. all the close friends i had down in cedar have moved away, and I have been having a hard time making new friends, I try i really do but i must be doing something wrong.
     I feel like i dont belong in my ward, I feel like me and Jesse don't fit in because we dont have children, I hate going to church and sitting in relief society having no one sit next to me, it gets really old being the only one sitting by themselves, while everyone else has there friends. I try, I introduce myself when i actually have someone sit by me, i feel that i am a personable person and good friend, and that im easy to get along with, but that doesn't matter i guess. I must admit that because of this i haven't really wanted to go to church, and i haven't been going because when i do go i just don't feel like i belong. this week we actually went, and it just made me feel the same way, no one knows who we are, and i know that is partially our fault because we didn't go very often when i worked nights ( i always worked weekends), but we have been making an effort to go since i started days, i know i should be going, and i want to go and feel of the spirit. but when i do go the only person who knows me is my bishop, I hate smiling at people and getting looks of who is that girl? Sometimes i feel that maybe we should be going to the young married ward, and not a family ward, i might fit in better there and maybe make a friend. which would be nice. but i love my bishop, and i feel like if i left for that reason it would be all selfish. I hate these selfish feelings, i hate that i don't want to go to church just for the fact that i don't know anyone. today we had a combined priesthood and relief society and it was one the atonment, it was a very good lesson, and jsut made me realize how much i love my savior, but also how much i really need to be working on. it also made me feel really guilty for feeling this way, i know i have some of these feelings because im not doing everything we are supposed to be doing, but I have felt this way for so long its hard.
     I just want to have a group of girl friends i can do things with, my husband has his group of guy friends and i know they get sick of me tagging along, but I have nothing else to do and don't want to sit at home by myself. and i know they think of me as a friend to but I need some girl friends. Im sorry that this post is so personal, but i keep this blog as a journal, and I just needed to get these things out, I didn't write this as a pity me post.   I just want people to know its really hard for me to say how i am feeling, that is why writting it down helps me feel a little bit better. Im sorry this is a depressing post but this is how i have been feeling the past few months and one reason i haven't updated in so long, because really who reads this anyway?

Family Photos

2010-11-29T13:53:00.000-08:00

So while we were up for Thanksgiving, well a few days before since i worked turkey day. I had my dad takes some family photos of me and Jesse so here are a few! enjoy!

photo giveaway!!!

2010-11-09T17:20:00.001-08:00

hey guys my friend is doing a photoshoot give away, if you are interested go to this site and check it out!!!!
http://dahlquistphotography.blogspot.com

busy busy busy

2010-11-08T12:30:00.000-08:00

I know i am like the worst blogger ever! I guess you could say i have been really busy lately, which is partly true, but also i just really haven't gotten on the computer in a long time. so here is a quick update, in September we were able to go up north to one of my best friends wedding, Briana Harlan, and it was a wonderful experience she looked so beautiful and i was so glad that i was able to make it to her reception! also that weekend i went and saw The Lion King at Capital Theater with my mom dad and sister, it was amazing!! i would love to see it on Broadway!
Lets see then 2 weeks ago i went to Manitou Springs with my mom aunts and cousin, we went for a girls weekend, and it was really nice, i needed a break from work and all the stress it gives me. but it was a nice little resort town, we saw some cliff dewlings did a lot of shopping and yummy eating! :) it was fun i did miss Jesse lots though because i was gone for 5 days, then had to come back and work 4 days in a row so it was like i didn't see him for a whole week!

OK so here is some kinda big news, that makes me happy, i switched to days!! i am no longer a night shift nurse!! yay i have only worked 2 days shifts so far and both were one where i was orienting and the next i oriented a new girl. haha so way easy, im really nervous for my first day by myself. it is crazy working days but i already like it so much more, i feel like im getting back into being a real person!! and the day goes by really fast so that is a nice plus too. on a sad note, they had to make some cutbacks at work, so they are cutting a day shift and night shift nurse, so we will all be losing hours, not fun at all, but at least i still have a job, gotta look on the bright side. it really is going to suck losing hours, because Jesse is starting school in January so we need to save everything we have for tuition, because stupid FAFSA said we make to much, so lame, i hate how FAFSA works, i feel like we are always going to be in debt and never get out of it! ugh oh well, so that is what we have been up to nothing to exiting.

about time for an update!

2010-08-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

woo hoo for road trips!

ok ok i know my last post was in May! i am a complete slacker and should of posted stuff a long time ago, i just never really got around to it! :) so since i woke up at 4:30 in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep (thank you night shifts) i will update you all on what has been going on this summer.

graduation :)

      first off I graduated! yay my graduation was may 1st, it was awesome lots of family came down to support me and it made me feel really good, and proud of my accomplishments. Julie, Sarah, Chelsea and baby Ila came down as well as my family and aunt Traci, Dave and Jeni. Nana and Popo had plans to come down but because of health problems didnt make it, i was bummed but im so glad they are doing better and plan to see them in August some time! but can i tell you how excited i was to see baby Ila? man it was only for a day but i already love that baby so much! Chelsea you need to come out again, or wait me and Jesse need to come visit! that would be even better! :) she is the cutest happiest baby i have ever seen! :) way to go chelsea! so yeah graduation went well i will post some pics at the bottom.

    Well 3 days after graduation I started my New Job! i am a RN at Kolob care and rehabilitation in St. George Utah! it was a huge blessing that i found a job in southern utah! i had been looking forever, and my hopes were not very high, that when i got a call from Kolob i immediately took the job! yes its a nursing home and i told myself i would never work at one, but i enjoy it. it has been really hard, stressful and frustrating working there, but i feel like i am learning lots. after my 6shifts of orienting i was thrown into being a charge nurse, i work in the front with the more needy, critical patients. most are knee/hip replacements, but i also get all the people on feeding tubes, and IV's. it keeps me busy let me tell you! it has been tough because i have had to learn a lot of stuff by just being thrown into it. i wasn't ever trained on being the charge nurse so i am still learning all the responsibilities that come with it. I have had many a night where i feel like i am completely inadequate and dont know what the heck i should be doing, and i swear every night i work my patients turn into crazy people! but i have really grown alot, and do love almost all the residents i take care of. let me tell you there have been a few that have pushed me to my breaking point! but yeah its been good, I work the night shift so from 6pm to 6am, hence the reason i am wide awake right now! my body is still trying to adjust to the change.

     ok so what else have we done this summer? really not much, we were able to make it up to Island park, ID the last week of June for Jesse's birthday! it was a much needed break! adn so much fun, it was a really short trip but we both needed it and had a blast. were were able to see tad and sarah on our way up, and spent a few days with Julie at the cabin, even getting so spend a day with Jesse's Aunt Marilyn. it was really nice we just hung out most of the time, we took roxy and she loved it! haha Julie might still be recovering from her, she is still a very vibrant puppy! i will post some picture of our trip! while we were out for a walk we saw a mama moose and her baby! it was awesome and they were so close that it was a little scary. but cool still.

well we really didn't go anything fun for the 4th or 24th of July because i worked both those weekends. complete bummer because i didn't get paid time in a half because i was still technically on probation. LAME! oh well what can you do? lets see, we have just been working like crazy, i work 3night shifts a week, and jesse has been working like a mad man, we never seem to get a day off together, but hopefully this month will be different. man i can't believe its august! well this month we are going to go out to Salida, CO to my cousin Karen's wedding which is very exciting because Jesse hasn't met that side of my family yet and i can't wait for him to! i know they will love him and they will get along great! ok so thats about it for us i will post some pics from graduation and summer! and i promise to be better about updating! :)

Traci, Dave and Jeni

family photo at cabin!

Jesse's family, well the girls at least :)

I love this man!

the moose and baby

mi familia

this is how roxy likes to travel! haha head out of the car window!


happy b-day love!

quick update

2010-04-29T13:56:00.000-07:00

This will be a quick post, since i tried posting twice yesterday and it shut off on me both times, i just dont feel like retyping everything.

-i graduate in 2 days! :) picked up my cap and gown today
-i recieved my much wanted/ needed call from dopl, and yes they cleared me so now i can get my license! finally!
-i have a JOB!! i got hired on monday to work FT nights at Kolob rehabilitation in St. George, i know its not a hospital or my dream job, but it is a job and with the economy right now im happy for what i can get, plus i start working on tuesday and make more than a hospital would pay! :) so bonus
-my family is coming down tomorrow! and that means i FINALLY get to see baby Ila!! yay so excited.

ok thats about it, ps i love my husband.

One hell of a day!

2010-04-22T22:02:00.000-07:00

Ok so yesterday I got a call from DOPL (department of professional licensure- the people i get my RN license from) saying that i need to come in and answer some questions about my application, that is all they told me so i was a little nervous but figured maybe i needed to sign something or whatnot, i wasn't perpared for what they really wanted.

ok so i drive down to St. George this morning, getting more and more nervous as i drive, i get there and im taken into a small office and asked to sit behind a table. its just me and the lady and she doesn't have a happy look on her face, she shuts the door and turns to me

dopl lady: "we have some serious concerns about you test you just took."

me: "ok what about?"

dopl lady: (opens up a manilla folder and pushes it towards me) " who are these two people?
inside were my two pictures from taking my nclex test, one from vegas and one from draper.

me " thats me, those are from when i took my nclex"

dopl "are you sure you? you dont have a twin siblings that took the test for you instead?"

Me: " no, i dont have a twin, i have an older bro, younger bro on mission, and a sister that is 17"

dopl " does she look like you? did she take the test for you?"

Me: "no we dont look anything alike"

she goes on to ask me questions about my family, if i was married, where i went to school what i studied and what test i was taking, if you are going to accuse me of cheating you better know what the hell you are talking about and do your homework on the person! she should of known it was for the nclex, idiot!!

ok so this continues and she pulls out my drivers license picture( 2 years old by teh way), and school id from my freshman year so 2005, and points out that my signature on my license is different from the one from my test.

me: "well thats because i had just gotten married and was still trying to figure out how to sign it. and that school ID was from my freshman year before i was married. like 4 years ago!"

dopl: " could you please sign your name 7 time on this paper for me"
so gay so i did that and the whole time she is writting everything i say down.

dopl: " why did you take your test at 2 different testing centers? if it was you. "
ugh the nerve!

so then i had to go and explain i took the first in vegas because the was the soonest date and i wanted it to be done with, and that i wasnt planning on failing the first time, i had to tell her if i went by myself or with someone, good thing my mom came with me, (they are calling her to verify i bet!) then i had to tell them that it was my birthday teh weekend i took the 2nd test nad it was easier and cheaper for us to go up north so i could see my family and stay with them since we don't have the money for a hotel.

dopl " well you can see our concern since you failed one and passed the other, and you do look different in these photos"

me " not really, i think i look the same i can take my glasses off if needed"

dopl " take you hair down and glasses off please, "

i do all this and she jsut stares at me then finally says that she can kinda see a resemblance! ugh!!!!!

then we talk about some more stuff, and she says that i dont have my license and wont until she has teh FBI verify my fingerprints. luckily she said that will be next week sometime, but if it takes any longer i will be pissed and take some action because this is bullshit! so much for being innocent until proven guilty, way to accuse me right of the bat, and without doing any research on the subject!

sorry this was a much needed vent session today, i hope it made sense if not then im sorry, just know that it sucked and i felt like i was in jail being accused of murder!

i know that nursing is a huge deal and that you have to be supercareful about who gets a license, but i passed my test, i DIDN"T cheat and would never cheat, im just hurt i guess that i was accused of such a thing and that they treated me like scum, im just so tired of hitting all these roadblocks, i really feel that its my time to have something right happen to me for a change! im just hoping some thing good will come out of this.

on a happier note i have an interview for the residency program in st george next week! pray and cross your fingers i get it!!!!

I am now a REAL NURSE! :)

2010-04-14T11:59:00.000-07:00

I PASSED!!! woot woot! as of today i am a RN!! im so happy, and im ready to find a job and start looking! i have applied to 6 places already so cross your fingers I get interviewed! yay i am so thrilled that the stress of that test is behind me! now i can breathe easier and have a life again! yay!!

ps i will post more about my birthday adn the test later! but right now its time to celebrate!

2 days, and a happy suprise!

2010-04-08T16:42:00.000-07:00

2 days till my birthday! this Saturday i will be turning 23! me and Jesse are lucky enough to be able to go up north this weekend, sadly not only for my birthday but also so i cant take my NCLEX (4 days). but im still excited all the same! we don't have anything super big planned, i just know that i need to go to the temple before i take my test. i have a really strong feeling that if i do that i will pass my test! so im going to follow the lords prompting! :) plus it will be a good experience anyway. Ok well i have to get back to studying, even though its so nice out and i want to go play outside!

p.s. I got a letter from my brother Austin today, he is serving a mission in South Carolina. I was so happy to read his letter and after reading it i truly feel that it was meant for me to receive this letter today. my brother had made a few comments that i really needed to hear, and just strengthened my testimony that the lord truly knows us and knows what we are capable of, he loves us and has a plan for us all, and if we stay true to his words and commandments we will be blessed. Thank you Austin i love you so much and im so proud of the man you are becoming. I truly feel that the lord is going to bless me with passing this test, and that he has paved the way for me.

6 days!

2010-04-06T12:03:00.001-07:00

6 days till i retake my NCLEX!! so nervous but feeling more confident this time! wish me luck!

good weekend

2010-03-29T15:26:00.000-07:00

so last night we went to our friends Mike and Shelly's house for dinner, we met up with Terri, Bryan and there two kids Emma and Nathan. it was a great night of playing games, eating great food, and delicious cake bon bons! mmm... my mouth is watering just thinking about them. so delicious! i must say that i LOVE these two families, i have known them since before i got married and they have always been good to me and my family! mike and Shelly have 2 wonderful children Madi and Logan they are the cutest little kids ever. and Emma and Nathan i have known since they were tiny! Emma has always been my little pal, and when our family's would go camping we would always play, or i would do her hair. i just love these kids and there parents. I feel so grateful to have great friends down here that treat me and Jesse like family. It gets hard being away from mine and jesse's family so it's really nice knowing i have someone to go to if i need anything! speaking of Jesse's family, his mom, sister and her husband are coming down this weekend to celebrate Easter with us! im very excited to see them! I miss my niece Paisley! she is the cutest girl ever and so fun to be around. i just know its going to be another great weekend.

on a more educational note, i take my NCLEX 2 weeks from today! so scary! I started the Kaplan Review today and i can already tell that it is going to help me out so much! I know that im going to pass it this time, i feel that this Kaplan Review is what i need to help me with my test taking anxiety and how to answer the questions correctly! so im very grateful to be taking it!!

any-who hope all is going well and that everyone enjoys general conference this weekend!

1 more day!

2010-03-21T15:21:00.001-07:00

Only 1 more day till my husband comes home! yay he has been gone for a week. he went out to maryland to visit his sister Chelsea. he is having a blast and im so glad he got to go, but im ready for him to come home, ive been so bored this week! and im getting lonely! 1 more night of no husband than he will be here yay!!!

job interview

2010-03-08T16:36:00.000-08:00

So I got a call this morning, from Kolob Rehabilitation Center in St. George for a Interview! i was so excited i got ready adn headed down there, started the interview adn they lady was ready to hire me until she found out i had already taken the NCLEX and what that means is that i can't get a temporary license because once you test they wont let you get it until you pass it. so she had to say no. it was a sad day! but she said that if i call her in april after i pass my test and she has an opening she will give me the job! so at least i got my foot in the door somewhere. it jsut sucks, i wish i would of known about that rule, but oh well. at least i got practice interviewing!

im so sick of being sick!

2010-03-02T09:39:00.001-08:00

So for the last week and a half i have gone to bed sick, and woken up with a massive migraine! im so tired of being sick, i just feel like blah, and have no motivaion to do anything because all i want to do is sleep! ugh stupid life, i just want it to be warm out and for me to feel better!

late valentines day post!

2010-02-24T21:20:00.000-08:00

So i know this is really late, but considering that i was freaking out the past 2 weeks, i think its ok that i post this late! so me and jesse didnt do anything to big this year for valentines day because we are really poor! but we did make it a goal to go to the temple, so we went on Saturday. it was really nice, it has been so long since we have gone, i forgot how amazing you feel afterwards. I really needed to go and feel the spirit, while we were there i got this overwhelming feeling of comfort and peace, and an answer to my prayers, I had been praying really hard that i would pass my test and that everything would work out for me and Jesse. Well while in the celestial room i got a very strong feeling that things were going to work out and i felt very comforted and confident for my test. well seeing as i failed my test, i was questioning these feelings and was a little angry that my answer wasn't in the way that i wanted it to be. during this past week i had the opportunity to talk to my parents and my bishop and they helped me to realize that this is an answer, jsut not the one i wanted and that i need to look at the bigger picture, that maybe i didn't pass this test because i need to grow spiritually, (because honestly me and jesse haven't been as active as we should be) or that maybe the lord is paving the way for a job, or a way for us to stay in Cedar longer. My dad and bishop (both great men) told me to keep remember the feeling i had in the temple and trust in the lord. well i have been doing that and reading my scriptures and i do feel so much better about the situation, i know that i am capable of passing this test and that i will do it the next time. and that as long as i trust in the lord and stay close to him everything will work out the way it is supposed to.

Sorry that was a longer sidenot than i thought. now back to what we did for our valentines date. so we went to the temple had a great time and after we met up with our friend Amy and Mike and went to eat at the Mongolia BBQ! which is amazing so yummy! then on sunday i made this really yummy crock pot enchiladas (thank you julie for the recipe) Mike and Amy came back over to eat with us then we played some games and they left. then me and jesse played a game of Left for Dead, haha i know zombie game, but its so much fun and what a good way to relieve some stress! i love killing me some zombies!

So that was our Valentines day weekend. this week i have been working lots, helping jesse out at work, but that wont be for much longer because i got to start studying again! but tonight i got in the craft mood, and made a picture frame for my M-I-L and a birthday gift for my sister in law but i will have to wait to post that ;) but yeah im glad to be feeling happy again, and i know jesse is glad to have me back to normal too! he is such a great husband, he watched plenty of chickflicks with me, and got me ice cream, adn some new scriptures (they were my valentines day suprise!) which i love them all!!

oh i also dyed my hair, i dont know if you can really tell, it is a lot lighter but i dont know if the pictures do it justice, its not as light as i would like to go, but one day i will get there.

Everything will be ok....someday.

2010-02-19T12:16:00.000-08:00

So on tuesday i took my NCLEX exam. the way the test it done is you either take a minimum of 75 questions or you can take the max of 265. or they stop you in between somewhere. well i was a lucky one to take all 265 questions. it took me 4.5 hours to test, and i felt really confident about my test until question 180 when i realized i would probably be taking the whole test. now this test is the worst test you will ever take. you go in scared out of your mind and you come out feeling like you failed. well i was trying to stay positive during the test and i was doing ok, it was when i started to get repeat questions and when they kept asking me the same things that i started to lose my confidence. man this test really just kills your soul, you lose all motivation, confidence, and faith in yourself. so i took the test, left feeling like i failed, went back to the hotel saw my mom and started balling.

well the past two night were hard because you dont know how you did, and i was freaking out, i really didnt feel like i passed it, but i kept telling myself i did. well today was the day i got to find out how i did. well i have been home alone since jesse is at work, i know i should of waited for him to get home to find out, but i just needed to know. well i looked and I failed, my whole world came crushing down on me hard. I immediatly started balling, (still am) im so mad at myself, disappointed in myself, im sorry i let my family down. i know they wont say that i did, but i feel like i did. im just so tired of failing, i feel like i have had so many trials this past year with school i dont know if i can handle this last one. i really just wanted a break, i wanted to see that i passed and that i can now go find a job and be a nurse. but i shouldn't of gotten my hopes up because i suck at taking test, i have horrible test anxiety, even with meds i dont do well. i just wish i would of passed so that i could be happy and my family could be proud. I just am so sick of failing, i know this isnt' the end of the world but it sure feels like it. I know i need to be grateful for the fact that i did graduate, and i am. I am so grateful for the opportuinity i have had to go to school and get my degree, but its hard to feel grateful when you dream doesnt come true right away. I know this will be some huge learning experience for me, and that the lord probably has some lesson he wants me to learn, but why can't i jsut have one good thing happen to me right now? i feel like all we get are trials and struggles. we have a hard enought time paying our bills, that me passing my boards and getting a job would of been a huge blessing to us. but i guess i will have to wait. i know things will work out one day, i just wish it was today. im sorry this is so depressing it just is how i feel right now, i really just want to curl up into a ball, and stay there forever. I just am having a hard time seeing the light in this. i keep thinking that maybe this is a sign that i shoudln't be a nurse, i think back on all the struggles i have had during the nursing program and maybe i wasn't supposed to do this. but this is what i know i am meant for! i know im supposed to be a nurse i knwo im supposed to help people! that is just who i am. but why does it have to be so hard? i just want a break i want some thing good to happen to me and jesse. im sorry im wallowing but i need to vent, i need to cry i need to freak out, or else i dont know how i will face the next 45 days until i can test again.

NCLEX exam!

2010-02-12T14:49:00.000-08:00

So I take my NCLEX exam on Wednesday Feb. 17th! this is the biggest test i will ever have to take! im so nervous, if i pass this test i get my RN license and i can work as an RN! words can't describe how scared, nervous, anxious, worried I am. I have been studying like crazy and i just keep praying will remember everything that i need to! So if you see me in the next few days and I look like a wreck this is why! please keep me in your prayers, and cross your fingers that I pass!!

Cruise Pictures!

2010-01-28T19:33:00.000-08:00

Day 1, the nigth before in miami and us watching the cruise ship leave! dont worry my mom didn't drink that beer, it was for joke purposes!

the first dinner! the food was so delicious!!

those two cute girls are maddie and sadie! they are like my second sisters! we had so much fun together!

Half Moon Cay

a beautiful private island, i could definantly stay there forever!

Dinner night number 2!

i was forced to do Karaoke but it ended up being really fun!

first formal night! more karaoke afterwards, we all got up and sang! well not my mom and aunt they were to scared to!

St. Thomas, Sapphire beach

So beautiful there were iguanas, ducks, lizards and we went snorkiling which was amazing!

PUERTO RICO!!

Im in love with all the architecture here, all the buildings are so beautiful i can't wait to go back and take Jesse.

More Karaoke

Grand Turk

We went snorkeling with sting rays! we got to hold and feed them!

Second Formal night

these are all our waiters they were so great!

delicious food! especially the fruit and fruit soups!

Legends Night! way fun!

We met so many new people and they were all so nice!

The Everglades, we went here before the airport! it was cool, smelly but cool.

So there is most of my pictures i hope you all enjoyed!

Cruise!

2010-01-27T13:00:00.000-08:00

So Last week i went on my cruise, and can i just tell you that it was a blast! we went to half moon cay in the bahamas, St. Tomas, Puerto Rico, and Grand Turk. These places were so beautiful! everywhere you went it was white sand and clear blue ocean! So this post is going to be a quick one because im not at home and i want to post pictures of the cruise so i will give you a quick insight of what we did then post pictures with more details later! There was a group of 20 people that all went on the cruise with us, most were friends of my moms, but it was all good because i got along with everyone and we all had a blast. My aunt and cousin from Texas came out with us, which was so great! i really love my cousin and we get along great so it was good to have a whole week to spend together.

Well here are some highlights of the trip!
-going to Miami and walking around the board walk ( this is the farthest east i have ever been! and it was so pretty!)
-eating all the free food you want! and it was all delicious!
-watching and singing karaoke everynight! it was a blast and met lots of fun people!
-going snorkiling with sting rays! i held one, and fed it! also saw a barcuda while i was snorkling!
-spending a awesome week with my mom!
-laying out by some of the most beautiful beaches i have ever seen!
-learning to play some new games! L,R,C and 1 to 100! very fun games
-meeting lots of interesting people on the ship, and making a few new friends.
-seeing tons of drunk people nad realizing how happy i am to be LDS.
-being flashed by a drunk girl, not really a highlight but it had a pretty funny story to go along with it.
-getting a tan and being in warm weather!
-going to Puerto Rico! it was by far my favorite spot, it is so gorgeous and i could spend a whole week there! i want to go back!
-i loved all the towel animals i got on my bed each night! they were so cute!
-many more fun things.

Sorry this is a random post, im still coming off my high of a great trip, and havent' quite come back to reality yet. but i can say i am happy to be home with my husband i missed him so much and the trip would of been 100 times greater if he was with me.
ok i will post pics later!

This is my first post ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-12T16:56:00.000-08:00

This is my first post and I really have nothing to say except I feel really gay typing this. Chelsea, Sarah, Ben and all of their correlating spouses, this post is for you. Fin.

Christmas and New Years!

2010-01-12T15:07:00.000-08:00

Warning: long post and lots of pictures!!!

I know this is a late post, but better late than never right? well i guess i will catch everyone up on how our Christmas and New Years went. so we had a very short but sweet Christmas break, all of Jesse's family was in Maryland, so we got to spend Christmas with my family this year, which was great! we had to work on christmast eve so we drove up once we got off work, we made it there in super fast i swear our 3hour drive only took us 2hrs and we weren't even speeding! haha so yeah we got to my families house just in time to head to the movie theater to go see Avatar, we drove to the theater in payson to find out it was closed, whoops, we checked online for the times but the forgot to mention they were closed on christmas eve, so we went home and watched the christmas 1st presidency special which was really nice, then we watched the new Star Trek which jesse loves! it ended up being a nice relaxing evening. we all got new PJ's which is a christmas tradition in my family, so we were all cuddled up for our movies. well the next morning we slept in till like 9am me and jesse could of slept longer haha but my little sister is so antsy she couldnt' wait to open gifts. but before we would let her go down we had to do the traditional picture on the stairs! haha i know we are all grown up but i still love it, because its one family picture we get before the crazyness of the day takes over. so once that was done we went in to open gifts. me and jesse were the christmas elves this ear and passed out all the gifts. it was a really great day, me and jesse got my parents old stereo system with speakers adn a 5 dvd changer. which is awesome! we got an awesome picture my dad took and framed, jesse got the router he has wanted for a long time and is so excited to start wood working again. I got some ugg like boots i know they are ugly but they keep my feet so warm, and my feet are always freezing so its nice to have warm feet. i got a jacket, camera, and shirt from jesse for christmas, and jesse got two really nice jackets from me, and transformers and a few games. I got lots of clothes from my mom and dad, and some gift cards so i coudl get stuff for my cruise (which i leave for on saturday!!!) i was able to buy and new swim suit and skirt and shirt with them! i also got some sweet hot pink converse shoes, and jesse got bright blue ones that he loves. we got other stuff but i wont bore you with the details~! we had amazing quish and cinnamin rolls for breakfast, and ham for dinner. then next day we went and saw Avatar then headed up to my Aunt Traci's in Ogden to exchange gifts with them, it was really good seeing them i really miss my family and its hard living three hours away so i really love it when i get to see them. the rest of the weekend was really relaxing, roxy and snoopy played like crazy! and roxy was so tired she slept the whole way home which was really nice. well for new years we stayed home and watched teh star trek movies jesse got for chirstmas, yes my husband is a trekie but i love him for it! :) then the next day we went to dinner with our friends sarah and jacoby, we ate at chilies and had our friend Ty as a waiter, it was delicious! well thats about all we did for our holidays but it was fun.

So i finished my NCLEX review, and my Transcripts are being mailed to DOPL and i will have my Authorization to Test by the end of the week. what this means is that i can sign up to take my state boards, once i pass my boards i will be an official nurse! im so scared to take the test thought! its a 6hour test and you could take 75 or 250 questions, you dont know if you pass for about 48hours, and it is the hardest test i will ever have to take! This is what i have been working towards for teh past 4 years! once i pass this test i will be able to relax! i have been studying hard and keep telling myself i will pass but im still scared and anxious, but im smart and i know i can do it. everyone pray for me nad wish me luck! im hoping to take the test when i get back from my cruise, so yes teh cruise will be a blast but i will definanlty be studying on my down time!

my beautiful mom and Santa Paws Roxy

me and jesse in our pj's and me and alex in ours. haha yes mine are eeyore.

our traditional stair picture, adam doesnt look happy! haha and jesse loves his waterbottle he takes it everywhere.
my new straightner and Jesse's star trek movie he is so happy!

my new shirt and hat, which i ended up trading alex for hers haha!

I love my family!

Our new cocoa latte maker we love it thanks Aunt Kelly!

The Picture my dad took and framed for us i love it!

Sexy Husband!

All About Jesse

2009-12-31T13:23:00.000-08:00

So my husband was feeling bad because every blog we look at is all about there husbands and he says that he feels left out. so this is a blog just for you Jesse!!!

these are the top 10 things Jesse loves
10. watching Sci Fi and Superhero movies.
9. Going off roading in his jeep, well pretending to go off roading, since there is no good place in cedar
8. Going to ZHE and shooting zombies! he loves to play games on his Xbox
7. Playing Settlers with Tad and Sarah, even if he never wins
6. going shooting, which he is super excited about since he is getting a shot gun soon!
5.Playing with Roxy, even getting bitten by her. he loves that dog!
4.Eating candy, gandolfos sandwiches, and mountain dew. i swear these are what he lives on.
3. Being with his family, its been hard being away from them these past 2 years, but we have so much fun with them when we get to see them.
2. doing anything that involves me and him together. we love our date nights, or even just watching a movie on the couch.
1. last but not least I am jesse's most favorite thing!!!
ME Jesse loves me so much and i love him just as much back!!

Ok so jesse you better be happy now this post was all about you!
oh and ps. me and jesse have been together 4 years i can't believe its been that long.

and Christmas pics and post will be up soon.

no peeking sarah or paisley!

2009-12-20T16:30:00.000-08:00

So i know its not Christmas yet, and Sarah or Chelsea will probably see this and ruin the suprise but i really wanted to post pictures of the dress i just made Paisley for Christmas, its a twinner dress with Ila's, (but its better made) no worried chelsea im making Ila a new one! i finally figured out my pattern! well here are the pics.

2010 here we come!

2009-12-17T13:50:00.000-08:00

I can't believe christmas is a week away! this year has gone by so fast! i dont know if im ready for it to be over! here are some things that we have accomplished this past year.
1. I started my last year of nursing school
2. Jesse got a new job as manager of Gandolfos (Thanks Tad!)
3. we moved into a house (thanks mom and dad, best landlords ever!)
4. we got a cute but very naughty puppy, Roxy we love you!
5. I turned 22! and had a great night with my friends playing bingo!
6. I made the deans list for spring semester!
7. We celebrated our 2nd year anniversary, we stayed at an awesome bed and breakfast, went to the zoo and i dropped my phone in the toilet :(
I love you so much Jesse
8. Jesse Turned 24, and learned that he loves to go shooting!
9. I started my last semester of nursing school
10. had some amazing clinicals this semester and learned lots from my preceptor
11. learned that CPR is a lot harder than it looks, and kills your wrist but is worth it when you save someone!
12. had an awesome Halloween in Arizona, I love my nursing class, im really going to miss you all!
13. Learned that Marriage takes work, but when things go right its all worth it.
14. had a great thanksgiving with jesse's family! im so lucky that i got great inlaws and sister in laws! I love you Sarah and Chelsea!
15. I have a new baby niece that im so excited to meet one day! Ila you are adorable!
16. I failed a final, but learned a valuable lesson, the lord works does answer prayers but they may not be the way you wanted it.
17. I graduated from the Nursing program!!!!!! I have my BSN!!! nursing world watch out here i come!
18. I am studying like a mad man to take my NCLEX, but am so glad that i have this opportuninty to take a reveiw course and help me learn and progress i know that i will pass the first time!
19. I am so greatful for Jesse and helping me through this year, it has truly been a hard and crazy year, but i couldn't of made it through it with out him! love you babe!
20. Im so excited for Christmas!

wow i can't believe this year has gone by so fast, so many things have changed, I graduated college i never thought that this would happen so fast, i dont know feel ready to be a grown up! haha but im so excited for the adventures to come! I can't wait to call my self a Nurse, adn to have a job! It's been 4 years this Christmas since me and jesse started dating, i can't believe its been 4 years, 2 and half being married, our journey has just begun, but im so excited for what's next! Jesse has been working so hard this last year, and i know he doesn't feel like it has paid off, but i can see a huge change in him, he has learned so much adn become an amazing man! He gets to start school this next year and i know how excited he is to start working on his career, he is going to be an amazing buisness man, and im so greatful for him putting me throught school and now i get the chance to help him reach his dreams!

sorry this was a long post and a little random but i can't believe this year is almost over!

Im an official BSN College Graduate!

2009-12-12T12:18:00.000-08:00

So yesterday was my official graduation from the SUU nursing department! it was such a great day, my mom, dad and littler sister were able to come down, we were sad we couldn't have jesse's family there but they were there with us in our thoughts. So our Graduation from the nursing department is a little different, its called a Pinning ceremony where we get an official SUU nursing pin, and the director of the nursing department pins us. We had a few student speakers, the director talk and then a slide show or out last 2 years together. We then had one of our teachers read thank you letters we wrote to our families as we walked across the stage to get our pin, lamps and rose. so yeah it was a great day and I think our pinning went great, (ps we had to plan the whole thing by ourselves, and i must say we did a pretty great job!) so after graduation my family and I went to Benja's a Thai food resturant in St. George, my family was a little nervous they had never had Thai food before but i told them not to worry! haha they ended up loving it, me and jesse told them so! so after that we just hung out in St. George before going home, then me and jesse went to hang out with some of my nursing friends and celebrate the rest of our night! yay i can't believe im done, it feels so weird i dont think it has actually hit yet, that i dont have to go to school next week, Haha. i know i still have one big hurtle left to over come and that is passing my boards but im going to study hard and i know i can do it!

I just want to say thank you to everyone that helped me through these last two years! to all my friends for the support, my Family for loving me and being there for me, for all the people who let me crash at there place for early morning clinicals, and to my husband for being such a loving man, and really being my best friend and encouraging me the whole way through and for being my shoulder to cry on. I love you so much honey and I don't know what I would do with out you!

Graduation Countdown!

2009-12-03T17:07:00.000-08:00

So i graduate next friday!!!! yay that is 7 days! in a week from today i will be a college graduate! im so flippin excited! but with that excitement comes overwhelming stress! i have 3 finals next week to worry about and there is one final that if i dont pass i dont graduate, and that is really freaking me out, im also stressing about finding a job, i didn't get into the residency program down here, which is waht i was hoping for, so now i have to start looking at other hospitals up north, we are even considering Idaho, but i really want to stay close to my family, but we will move where the money takes us. so anywho i will be college graduate in a week! and hopefully by the end of January i will have passed my bored and then i will be a real nurse!! yay

Carving Pumpkins

2009-12-01T17:28:00.000-08:00

So i know this is really delayed, but here are the pictures of when me, Jesse and some friends carved pumpkins for Halloween!

Job Interview!

2009-11-17T13:12:00.000-08:00

So this has been a crazy stressful week! first my dog chewed up my phone, and then all day yesterday people from my class were getting calls for interviews down at Dixie, and i was freaking out because my phone wasn't working so how were they going to contact me? well lucky they emailed me and i have an interview for the Dixie Regional Medical Center Residency program Tomorrow at 11am! i am so excited but also so nervous, its a group interview because they got so many applicants, im worried i wont stand out i just don't know what to do im freaking out i really want this, but im afraid they wont like me. ahh what to do! so everyone if you will pray for me and keep me in your thoughts and send me good vibes that would be awesome!!

ps this is my last week of class crazy!!!

Im going to miss you little brother!

2009-11-04T12:43:00.000-08:00

So my little brother Austin left on his mission today :( its a bitter sweet day, i know he is doing the right thing and will be a great missionary, but i know im going to miss him so much! we were always so close and got a long well, but he is going to have a great experience and i can write to him. so i guess i will live.

on a happier note, i was in Phoenix this past weekend and can i tell you how much i love Phoenix, i have never been before, and i just fell in love with the city, i cant wait to go back! so i was in phoenix for the mid year NSNA confrence, it is a confrence for nursing students. it was a good time not as great as i had expected it, but i had a lot of fun. we got to see the site of phoenix, went to the zoo, and just had a blast. i learned some good things for school and got to talk to some recruiters which helped me feel more comfortable for appying for jobs.

oh and graduation is 4 weeks away! its so scary and exciting, i feel and know i have so much to do still, but i can't wait to be done with school!

I'm feeling Crafty!

2009-10-23T17:20:00.001-07:00

So i went up north last weekend to see my family, and me, my mom and aunts went to a craft fair where i saw this awesome booth that sold very cute head bands. well there was one with some feathers on it, that i just fell in love with. but since i can't wait till christmas ;) i decided to make my own, so here are some pics of the feather headbands i made! i just love them!

ps. i only have one month left of school! yay its so crazy i can't believe im almost done! i can start applying for jobs now which is awesome and scary.

Quick Update

2009-10-06T14:59:00.000-07:00

Hey guys sorry its been a while, i wanted to wait and post pictures of what we have been up to, but i broke my camera so no pictures sorry. :( well school is still crazy as ever, i just finished up my preceptor on Sunday which was a great experience im glad i had the opportunity to follow and nurse around and have a great mentor teach me. so now that that is over i get to do 8 shifts in the ER, ICU, NICU, ect. this will be an adventure i just know it.

Jesse has found a new activity he loves down here, he has been going shooting like twice a week, he has his dads old 22 rifle and he loves going shooting when ever he can, but that means now he really wants a shotgun, and a pistol. so at least i know something to get him for christmas :)

for all my family and friends that dont already know, my little brother Austin got his mission call about a month ago! he will be serving in the Columbia South Carolina mission! he leaves Nov, 4th, 2009. i am so excited and proud of my little brother, i know he is doing a great thing adn will be an amazing missionary!

I can't wait to be a nurse!

2009-09-09T12:43:00.000-07:00

So this is just a quick update, so school has started and it is going well, classes are not as crazy as they have been in the past. lots of busy work but that"s to be expected. so this last week i was able to start my preceptor. for those of you who don't know what this is, it is like an internship, i get paired up with a nurse and follow them around, basically doing there job and having them mentor and evaluate me. I must say that i am LOVING this! I have been paired up with 2 nurses, who both are amazing! i am learning so much and am finally feeling like a real nurse. I can't wait to get back to the hospital and finish my shifts! i just love the feeling of helping people, and being able to make there life a little easier. I can't wait to be graduated and to be doing this for the rest of my life!

Update on our busy lives!

2009-08-20T13:52:00.000-07:00

So i know its been forever since we have posted anything, we have been really busy, work has been kinda crazy having 2 people leave so me and jesse have been working lots. well here is a quick update of whats been going on.

on the 24th of july weekend we were able to go up north and spend some time with my family, we went boating, it was so much fun, except for the part where jesse got fried! he burnt his feet so bad he couldn't wear shoes for a while, he is finally just getting over the burn! lets see were learned that roxy loves boating and tubing!

two weekends ago we were lucky enough to have tad, sarah and paisley come visit us! it was only for the weekend but well worth it, we took paisley swimming, then went to dinner adn we babysat paisley while tad and sarah went to a shakespearean play. i love paisley! i had so much fun with her. me sarah and paisley went shopping saturday which was really fun and we both got some cute things. then of course we played settlers that night!

well this weekend is my last weekend before i head back to school, and what is a better way to end the summer than to spend it with your family. we are going up north to visit jesse's family because his sister chelsea is coming to town, jesse is really excited, and of course i am too, its been a long time since i have seen chels and its going to be a great weekned i know it!!!!!

So on the last note this is my last semester of school! i will be an official college graduate in december! im so freaken excited!! i can't wait to be done with the nursing school and to finally get a real job doing what i love!

here are some pictures of use tubing with roxy! ( i bet frodo cant do this!)

Happy Birthday Jesse!!!

2009-07-13T17:48:00.000-07:00

I know that is really late, but on June 28th, jesse turned the big 24! :) we did a lot of fun stuff for his birthday, since his birthday was on a sunday and we have church at 9am, i decided to make jesse his breakfast birthday on saturday. i made him blueberry pancakes, with magelby's syrup (which is amazing!) this was at jesse's request. they turned out really yummy. after breakfast we threw on our swimsuits, and grabbed roxy and headed to Kanarraville to hike to the falls. it was a really fun hike, Jesse had never been on this hike before so i enjoyed taking him on it. Roxy really enjoyed it too, until we got to the water part. haha. after the hike we headed home to clean up then drove down to Mongolian BBQ in St. George adn had some yummy dinner, this is probably one of jesse's favorite resturants. well after a long fun day we went home and watched a movie. The next day on his official birthday, he got sang to in primary! :) which he loved, then after church i went to work on his cake, I wanted to make is special so i put food coloring in the batter, which turned out really cool, then i decorated it so it looked like the batman symbol, which turned out awesome, i am really impressed with this cake. haha jesse loved it and i wouldn't let him see it until it was done, he had no idea i was going to make it look like batman! so for dinner we had homemade tacos and cake. it was awesome!

Happy Birthday Jesse! I love you so much, you are a great husband and i had so much fun with you!

At the mouth of the slot canyon!

smile! jesse posing in front of his bday breakfast.

haha jesse modeling the gifts from his mom! the cake Before!

After! Smile Love!

This last weekend, my best friend Carolyn came down to visit, it was a lot of fun, i set her up with my friend mike, we hung out all weekend, on friday we made hobo dinners up the canyon, then came back to our place and watched a movie. On saturday me and care drove down to st. george where we did a lot of shopping, which was great, i have missed having a shopping buddy. when we got back we jumped into our suits grabbed jesse and mike and headed to the Meadow Hot Springs. it had been 2 years since i had been so i was nervous about finding the right spot, well come to find out i didn't exatly remember how to get there, haha we ended up driving around for like 2 hours, then we decided to head home, but as we were heading back i saw the turn off, we had drove right past it. i felt like a dummy, but it ended up being a blast, and well worth the adventures we had finding it. :) after hanging out at the hot springs we headed home, and stopped at dennys at 3am and had breakfast! Im so glad Care got to come visit, i have really missed my best friend! This has been a good summer so far.

Me and Care!

The awesome sign in front of the hot springs. NO NUDITY! Carolyn and Mike

Enjoying the hot springs, and the random guys in the back.

Me and jesse!

2nd year anniversary!

2009-06-19T18:40:00.003-07:00

Ok so here are some pictures of what we have been up to this summer. the first ones are from a hike i went on with my friends Jessica and Amy, we went and hiked Kanarraville falls. it was a fun hike. Amy is standing by the very scary ladder we had to climb to get to the rest of the path. it was really wobbly, but we all made it.

ok then these next pictures of are anniversary, we went up north to visit family, one of those nights we went to a bed and breakfast that was great! i would love to go back there. these are pictures from that.

This is the awesome king bed we had, oh there was so much room, i didnt have to worry about jesse hoging the bed :)

the three way fireplace and our seating area.

outside we had our own private patio where they brought us breakfast!

the view of the front of the building! it was so pretty they had waterfalls and koy ponds in the back, it was so relaxing.

i love jesse!

Then the next morning we went to the Zoo! my sister in law sarah and paisley came with us which was so much fun! paisley loved the carosel and train ride. it ended up being a good day and a great anniversary! thanks jesse i love you so much!

phone trouble+sinus infection=no blogging

2009-06-16T10:22:00.000-07:00

Ok so its been a while since I've blogged because I have been sick with a sinus infection for about a week now, I'm finally starting to feel better yay!

Well on june 1st we celebrated our two year anniversary!!!! I can't believe its been two years already, time sure fliesm well for our anniversary we went up north and stayed in an awesome bed and breakfast(pics to come) then we went to the Zoo which I love, except that day is when I dropped my phone in the toilet at the zoo :( sad I know.

So basically I have been without a phone iuntil yesterday! I got a new phone and so far I love it, its a blackberry curve and I'm writing all this from my phone which is so cool! Ok so I will post pictures soon of our adentures I hope everyone is doing well!

I love Summer!

2009-05-25T13:27:00.001-07:00

So i know its been a long time since i have posted anything, im sorry i am a slacker! so here is whats been going on, I have officially passed level 3 of the nursing program and i am now a level 4 nursing student which means i only have one semester left! yay! i graduate this upcoming december i am so excited!

Me and jesse have added a new member to our family! we got a puppy and her name is Roxy! she is a hound, terrier mix, and the cutest dog ever i love her so much!! she can be a little devil sometimes, but she is still a puppy so we hope she grow out of it! :)

So jesse and i have just been working lots, Gandolfo's is going well, its still kinda slow but he has high hopes for the summer! other than work, the first week of may, i went to California with a bunch of my nursing classmates, we stayed in LA, and the main part of our trip is when we went to the PRICE IS RIGHT!!! it was so awesome! we made shirts that said drew pick me, i may be your nurse someday! it was so surreal, i told myself im not going to get all excited and act like an idiot like most people do on the show but its insane how exicting it is, we had one of our friends get called up, Alysha, it was awesome, once they called her name, everyone freaked out! haha so yeah she got called up, and she got on stage, she won a brandnew computer, 40 in plasma tv, and an ipod, it was pretty sweet! it was so fun! i suggest if you are ever in LA you need to go to the price is right!

my sushi experience!

getting ready for Price is Right

at the Chinese Man Theater

we also went to Hollywood, the Beach, i ate sushi for the first time and found out that i am allergic to crab, yeah that was fun, my lips got all swollen and my throat got all itchy, it was scarry. but i lived. we also went to six flags, and just had so much fun! i want to go back!

Lets see what else have we been up to? well we have a new calling in church, we just got called to be CTR 5 primary teachers. so we teach the 5 and 6 year olds. which is really fun, im enjoying it so much!

Pictures of our House!

update

2009-02-03T20:01:00.000-08:00

So we have been really really busy, jesse is managing the Gandolfos down here, im busy with school which i am loving this semester, its all about mother adn baby which is what i want to go into. :) i had my first clinical last week and i was in the NICU which was amazing i loved it! so here is some good fun news, my parents bought a twin home down here adn we are going to be renting it from them, its a 3 bed/2bath house with a 2 car garage and back yard, we move in at the end of the month and we are so so so excited!!! well i will update more later!

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-14T16:40:00.000-08:00

So i just want to say that i have passed ALL of my classes! yay i am officially half way done with the nursing program and i will be moving on to level three next semester! im so very happy, excited and relieved that this semester is over, for it was the semester from hell. but it done and im so glad! yay!!!!

Life Frustrations

2008-11-15T16:11:00.000-08:00

Sorry its been a while since we have posted anything. School has been kicking my butt lately, i have had 3 midterms 3 weeks in a row, they are all ATI test, which are computerized and 40% of our grade. I failed my first one (along with 13 others) and our teachers and director decided to tell us its because we dont study enough, and that maybe we shouldn't be in the program. well that is bull! i have basically lived at the library this past month, i haven't seen my husband in a long time! we tried to talk to the director of the program and our teach the ask what we could do to help us get past these test, and how to pass the class ( that test bumped me from a b+ to a C-) because there are at least 6 of us now in jeopardy of failing and having to repeat the class, they basically said to bad, study harder.

im so frustrated right now because im giving 110% and to have my teacher tell me i dont study enough is a slap to the face. the reason so many of us failed is that our teach doesnt teach us what we need to know. also they expect us to past these test when we have only covered 50 % of the material, basically our midterm was a final. so yeah i might have to redo the class next semester and i have finally come to grips with that, it will just be really humiliating to be the dumb one who couldn't pass stupid med surg!So i have taken two of my midterms, i went to take my last one this friday and the computers were down so it has been moved to next week, which would be fine, but i have a pharmacology test that week to and clinicals, so im really stressed out and anxiety ridden. but i just keep going one day at a time.

So that is my school story and the causes of my stress, but we have even more crap happening to us. Jesse just lost his job, because the company he worked for just decided to go out of buisness, and not tell anyone. so we got a call this week that jesse is out of a job, so now were are scrounging anywhere to find a job, and its an impossible task to do in cedar because you have to know people to get jobs here. and then today we find out that our last paycheck has bounced! and we can't get ahold of anyone to get it fixed so now we are in even bigger financial trouble because we can't afford to pay our bills right now. so life just sucks for us, we are doing our best, we have been paying our tithing so we are just praying that things will work out. as for school, im just studying more and more and crossing my fingers i pass.

to my sister in law Chelsea!

2008-09-30T20:38:00.000-07:00

A few weekends ago we went up north to visit Jesse's sister Chelsea and her Husband Andrew. it was a lot of fun, we played Settlers of Catan, which i definantly won a game, and im pretty sure chelsea did too! yeah take that tidwells! :) we also ate amazing homemade cafe rio food, and ate really good food julie made! so here are some pictures of che che and andrew!

POO! to YOU *chelsea that is from jesse for you! Jesse has really missed his sister so he had a lot of fun visiting with her and we can't wait till one day we can go visit them in Maryland!

Jesse really loves his sister!

My first IV!

2008-09-20T16:04:00.000-07:00

So its been a while, so i will catch you all up on what has been going on lately.

last week i passed off my first IV stick! woot woot, it took pictures of christy and taryn getting theirs but i forgot to get a picture of when i finally got mine! sad i know.

here is christy getting her IV started on Taryn!

So besides getting my first IV started, school has been just as crazy as ever, i have been voted to be the SNA president! so thats pretty cool, that stands for Student Nursing Association. so i get to do fundraisers and work on getting trips set up. i think it going to be lots of fun.

well last weekend we went up north so that we could see chelsea and andrew, which was really fun, we played lots of settlers! and im proud to say that i definantly won a game! we also went bowling with jesse's friend mark, which was fun. then we had a birthday dinner for jesse's brother ben. but yeah nothing to big has been going on, but i will try to keep you all more updated!

Paisley with her favorite uncle Jesse

jesse's best friend mark and his friend from Germany

School is starting!

2008-08-23T10:31:00.000-07:00

So school starts on Monday, and i am just a little nervous, i think it will be a great semester, but really hard. i hope i remember all the stuff from last semester. ugh there is so much to know! haha

So Jesse found a job this past week, which is really great, because now i get to have him be with me all the time, and dont have to do the long commuting thing anymore. he is going to be working at the Gandolfos down in Cedar City, so not much of a change from what he was doing this summer, but they are going to pay him pretty well, and hopefully work him alot!

So yeah other than that we are back in our old apartment in cedar, and it is now clean and completley unpacked, yes it only took a year, but i finally made myself unpack the last few boxes that we had. so now everything is in order and our apartment looks alot better. except for the heat! i feel like im going to die! we dont have AC or a swamp cooler in our place so its like living in a sauna! i can't wait for the cold to come back!

Well i dont really have much more to write, but here are some pictures from the last bit of summer we had!

so this is a picture i took while we were in california, i feel that it turned out really well, i love it actually!

me and jesse on the beach in California

Julie, Jesse and my Neice Sariah at the PG Carnival

Sarah and Paisley at the PG Carnival, Paisley loved this ride!

The View from where we ate lunch up in Island Park for Jesse Birthday! it was gorgeous

Me and Jesse and Mesa Falls in Island park

The wicked cool Moose we say at Big Springs. we were so close to it!

2008-07-19T17:03:00.001-07:00

Memory Game

I hope you will play along.Here are the directions:

1. Add a comment on my blog and leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot just do anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. If you don't want to play on your blog, or if you don't have a blog, I'll leave my memory of you in my comments!

BATMAN!

2008-07-19T16:47:00.000-07:00

So i just have to rave about how awesome the new Batman is, me and Jesse went and saw it last night, and i do have to say it is probably now one of my favs! and the best batman movie there is out there. Heath Ledger plays the best joker ever! i couldn't get over how amazing he was, and how into his character he got, it didn't even sound or look like heath ledger. But yes it was an awesome movie, except as we were sitting down in our seats the lady in front of me sat down really hard and smashed my toe in between the seat and ledge. i felt stupid because i cried out in pain and immediately started crying it hurt so bad, and she wouldn't move i asked her and she ignored me so i finally pushed on the back of her seat real hard and got my foot out, and she had the gall to give me a dirty look. lame. so yeah my toe is bruised pretty bad. ugh.

So to update you on our lives, we are still working at Gandolfo's which isn't too bad, the food benefits rock, but i bet i have gained some weight because of it! whoops. We are still living with Jesse's mom, but she is up in Island park with here sister for the rest of the summer, so its been nice having the condo all to ourselves. Jesse is currently applying for jobs down in cedar so that we can head back soon. he has applied to two good ones, and should hear back soon about one of them. so keep us in your prayers that he gets it. Im waiting to find a job until we get to cedar becuase im not sure how much i can work once school starts. i hear its going to be a killer semester. but i am ready to get back to school, i have bought all my books, and started on the homework we have had for over the summer. oh yeah i don't know if i have stated before, but me and jesse are Sunbeam teachers in primary. man it can be tough, we have some pretty crazy 3 year olds. i really love it , but jesse not so much, but as the weeks have gone on i think our sunbeams have grown to love us. i really enjoy their sweet spirits and how smart they really are, they sure say some crazy stuff, but they are a lot of fun.
Other than working and teaching primary we really havent done much, we both really want to go camping sometime, its just a matter of getting work off, but right now i guess we feel its more important to earn money than to play, but i hope we will get one camping trip in before summer is over.

Blogging

2008-06-21T20:35:00.000-07:00

So since almost everyone i know has a blog spot, i decided that me and Jesse should have one too. but just to warn you all i'm not really big into this kind of stuff, and i know Jesse could care less, so if i dont post things very often thats why. So i guess i will quickly fill you in on the things we have done so far this summer. we celebrated our 1 year anniversary on June 1st, and this day was spent driving to California with my little brother and sister. we were on our way to San Diego for our family vacation and counting that as our anniversary. we went to the beach, the Zoo (which was my favorite day), California Adventure park, Knotts Berry Farm(jesse's fav), and then just spent a few days at our condo, which had an awesome pool. it was a really fun vacation and was realy needed, because jesse had just returned from his uncles funeral. so after a week of california we had to come home and go back to work. me and jesse are both working at Gandolfos Deli, and i have to say it is really fun getting to work with jesse. we stay pretty busy with that job, because we have to get up at 6am each morning to go to work, by the end of our shift we our exhausted and jsut want to sleep. so when we are not sleeping we are either swimming in our pool, or playing settlers with Sarah and Tad. we are getting really excited because my dad has gotten my families boat ready to be taken out. we love to go boating and since it has been so hot lately it will be a nice thing to do to cool off.
So next week is Jesse's 23rd birthday and we are going to go up to his cabin in Island Park to take a nice relaxing weekend. Jesse really wants and xbox 360 for his birthday but they are so expensive that im not sure if we will be able to get him one, but i have been saving up so we will see. well that is about all i have to say right now so goodbye. oh and those are some pictures from our summer so far.

Amie

summer movies

2008-05-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

So far this summer i have seen all great movies. and that makes me happy. i have seen what happens in vegas, iron man, prince caspian, and indiana jones. all of which i recommend seeing becaue they are all great. i really loved what happens in vegas, it is quite hillarious i haven't laughed so hard in a long time. Iron man is simply amazing and i can't wait to see it again.
the one movie that i can't wait to come out is Batman, the dark knight. It looks amazing! well this is a lame blog but whatever.